Good morning Rich,
So, you post a bit late at night? After a few drinks?
Many have been there. Done that. I suspect?
It's called release. Letting go. It's allowed and okay. And if you cross a line which you cant't actually see when you are tired and intoxicated and depressed, no worries. Just delete it or amend it the next day. And if you don't. No bother. Most will not take umbrage.
FWIW your life expectancy as stated today may seem short. Reality is that treatment options continue to progress. Outcomes continue to become better. People living with PCa who are diagnosed yesteryear are living beyond prognosis. No reasons why you should not also.
In the meantime, you may be down, will be "dessip ffo". Please feel free to vent here.
atb to you