My husband of 48 years, aged 75, was diagnosed with Prostate Cancer just before Christmas. His PSA was 139 and Gleason Score was 9. He began hormone therapy immediately and is due for his second injection in March. His bone scan and MRI have both been clear, but, with such a high PSA, the consultant felt sure that there would be some micro mets. He was asked if he would like radiotherapy, but, taking into account the side effects, and understanding that it may not make any difference in the long run, decided against.
Although it was a shock, I think we've dealt with the whole thing quite well and have been pretty positive on the whole. However, over the last few days I have been feeling really down. We were very pleased when his PSA reading, a month after the first injection, had dropped to 0.89, but I'm aware that this will change eventually when the cancer cells begin to grow again. I'm spending sleepless nights wondering when that will be. Will it be next year? In five years?
I know I should be living for the moment and I am trying to do that, but, it's hard. My husband doesn't know that I am feeling like this and I don't want him to know. I just wondered if others have felt like this and if anything helped. Words of wisdom required, please!