In the last two months I have lost a dear friend to cancer, started a new IT management job which often involves The Alamo moments and spent a lot of time medidating on life and death from a Taoist perspective (my thing rather than organised religion). These things have filled my life, the first two somewhat stressfully, I admit. I have barely looked at or posted on any forums and certainly not delved into the rabbit hole of medical research.
I noticed a month ago I was not waking up thinking "OH SH*T, I have cancer" because my attention was focussed on my life. I only sporadically think about it now. It kind of feels good but I am aware I am inbetween tests and have a long journey.
I am hoping that this attitude (apart from overworking myself which I need to stop right now) is a healthy thing as opposed to delusion or denial. I am unsure of how I will cope in the run up to and the results of my next test.
Your thoughts would be appreciated on moving on with a healthy mindset.