Hi Spongbob (and any other reader),
I took some time to think about this HT question, as I always like to put a positive spin on things if possible! However, other than potentially keeping the cancer cells at bay it is difficult to think of anything positive about it!! But, even with all the side effects I get, I am going to be a little anxious when they eventually tell me I can stop taking it (as I suppose that is when we find out if we got a cure or just a delaying action!). In terms of symptoms, the hot flushes are a real pain, but not the end of the world. I know how to almost completely stop mine, give up caffeine and alcohol, but that is too high a price lol. Oddly also strong emotions (especially when worried or stressed) cause an almost instant flush! But for me that is not the worst bit, it is the feeling of emasculation that really impacts. Defined as "the act of depriving someone of strength, vigor, or spirit" that comes close to how I am feeling at times. Synonyms help explain further "Soften" - yep all my body softened (especially around the tummy) and bigger except my 'male equipment' which has shrunk and does not work properly! "devitalize" - yep, my walks with the dog now 15 to 20 mins and sometimes just cannot be bothered to do stuff. "undermine" - yep, especially confidence. "debilitate" - yep, at risk of this one as well. So, what to do about it!!! Can't just roll over and curl up .......... Have started Pilates for Cancer Patients, which is great. Everyone looks so healthy!! Am looking at the new gym around the corner and thinking, January when back from holidays? Am starting this new venture and trying hard to get excited about it. Am trying to avoid doom scrolling about percentages or recurrence, or prognosis for T3N1M0 Gleeson 8's!! And I keep reminding myself that everyone has an expiry date, and no-one knows when that date might be, so be grateful for every day and make the most of what you have left not matter how many days that might be!! It is not important how many, what is important is how you live those days!! So now I am feeling more motivated just thinking about this fact!!! Oh, and one good travel hack for anyone reading this. If you are not a UK citizen, or you have a partner who has an overseas passport, go through the disabled channel at Passport Control. You avoid all the queues and if challenged (which they never do), Cancer is classified as a disability! :-) Took me 5 mins to clear Passport Control with my wife when we returned from visiting the Cologne Christmas Markets (which I can recommend btw!). Without that hack would have been 90 mins easily! So lets not let this challenge get us down for too long. We can do this and beat this! David
Edited by member 10 Dec 2024 at 09:52
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