Today is the First Day of the Rest of my Life

I don't ever get chance to relax.

I was just celebrating Forest winning this afternoon when my sister rang me to tell me my mum has just been admitted into Bath hospital with breathing difficulties. She's in her mid 80's and hasn't been well recently. I'm really worried.

I'm going to visit her tomorrow but typical of the way my luck goes, the Bath Half Marathon takes place tomorrow so I'll have a nightmare journey to reach the hospital as there are a lot of road closures.

When is it going to end.

Steve

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Hi Paul,

I have to go tomorrow because it's the only day I have free until later in the week.

I have someone coming to try and sort out my central heating on Monday (I've had no heating for months).  On Tuesday, I have cardiac rehab and an echocardiogram appointment at hospital.  On Wednesday I have an important meeting with a client who I hope will give me work when I am fit enough to work..  So three days that are difficult to re-arrange.

I need to do this.

Steve

Thanks Paul,

Steve

I'll private message you.

Steve

Steve

Glad you're back home safe and sound. I have never gone along with the theory that things happen for a reason, but there are times in our lives when everything is hunky dory, and times when you wonder what it's all about.

Your experiences in the last 9 months have virtually all been negative, and you'll be constantly wondering why. It's just the most unfortunate timing that so much negative has happened without anything to raise the spirits. I hope your mother pulls through, but whatever transpires, you must believe there will be a rainbow in the future to brighten your spirits.

How long that rainbow will take to show itself is the big unknown, but please believe there will be good experiences to be had, life is worth living, and there'll be things to smile and laugh about.

As I said yesterday, priority number one has to be to look after yourself.

Paul

Hi,

Really sorry for not posting much recently, it's been a difficult time for me.  I didn't feel as if I could post, even though I was visiting the site each day to make sure everyone was ok.

Earlier today, I re-read my "How Lucky We Are" thread, because there had been a couple of new messages and I realised that I was ignoring my own and others advice.  If ever I needed support, it's now.

I don't feel as if I've ever felt so low as I have in the last two weeks.  I'm just so fed up with everything going wrong in my life, there never seems to be any "light at the end of the tunnel".  I just want something nice to happen for a change.  I think I've had my share of bad luck.  My mum's illness is the final straw. 

I seem to be too tired to do anything and I don't care, I would rather sleep.  I mean to do things each day but then don't, I'm wasting so much time which I'm sure I'll regret one day.  It's causing tension at home, love and support which I've enjoyed since cancer diagnosis seems to be draining away now, perhaps I've been at home too long.  I will probably go back to work at the end of the month if my heart is fixed or not.  The money has run out now and it's impossible to survive on £113.70 per week when the phone is ringing all the time demanding money.  It's causing so much stress (which I'm supposed to avoid).  Sometimes I just want everything to end.  Selling the house may be the only solution but I would feel even more of a failure if I did that because I wouldn't be able to buy another.  I've fought so hard to try and survive the recession.

I think that's all I can post, I don't think the words are flowing as they normally do, just the reason I wasn't posting before.

Steve

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