Chris J's Journey

Will be thinking of you tomorrow guessing it's the histology report.

Trish

Sorry everyone prob just nothing. I expect they forgot / message not got across that I was in hospital for a fortnight. Probably a catheter out check which they already know is just dandy. Will fone in the morning first thing.

It is human nature to try and second guess when someone calls you to say come in we want to chat and then can't tell you anything until you are there face to face.!

The really big ask is to try and think oh well nothing is going to change between then and now and if it did there is nothing I could do about it so I just have to plod along until that moment comes. Some people can actually do that.

I know I can't do it I think about every possibility decide I have every one of them, chew my nails, can't sit still, can't focus properly on anything...you know exactly what I mean and yet I know all to well it does me no good at all.

As for your meds I know lithium is debilitating but it does work really well for most and was the only drug that really worked for my Dad. I guess a lot will depend on your blood work if you still have signs of neutropenia there may be a further delay. Remember no strawberries for you this Wimbledon.

I hope all is well today

Xx

Mo

Hi Lyn ,
I really know this and am posting now -- I just totally blacked out tired last night . Im beginning to think you never sleep looking at your posts . And check your new picture out ( wolf -whistle )
My wife got hold of the prostate specialist nurse and explained id only been out 2 days and was highly tired/ stressed and did not want to come back unnecessarily. He basically said to ignore it unless he contacted us back -- which he didn't . But it is strange ? I had catheter out day 10. Would they normally see you day 15 ? And to be fair would they telephone you 20 hrs before ?They did say they were rushing Histology due me nearly in HDU , but if it was that they'd have got hold of me again surely . And as you know better than anyone else , my PSA etc wont be tested till end July . To be fair im just a bit down as expected , and cant be arsed at the mo. Not given up , but had enough for the moment.
REALLY sorry to worry anyone.
Chris

Hello friends , just a quick update ! Sadly my near 100% continence post-op has taken a small slump. I wonder if some of you knew it would . Basically for two nights running I have awoken with a completely full TENA level 3 pad . Prior to this I have literally barely needed a pad at all day and night .
Im an unhealthy drinker - I always have been . Sadly it goes hand-in-hand with 70% of bi-polar sufferers . I'd been drinking more before the op , and am drinking quite heavily again re the stress , depression , frustration . Im still fine totally during the day - I expect its the alcohol having built up since discharge last Sunday . However I was fine drink / sleeping pills / waking up et al for 5 days . Oh well . Yes I hear a thousand " well don't drink so much" replies coming on which I guess I deserve. If only it was that easy.

Do you remember Raiden who posted 2 weeks ago - a guy in an even worse state than me if that's possible haha . Its his Da Vinci RP tomorrow . I don't know if he will post or not but is going through with it . We two have literally adopted each other these last 2 weeks and feel we may have a life-long "friendship" to help each other through an ordeal which seems to have literally ripped us up internally with fears of our age , future , sex-life etc etc.

If you are looking Trish best wishes for Hubby Thursday also
Chris xx

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I did try with the alcohol but I love tea too much.

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