You're proactive in starting your treatment nidge.
Nobody can foresee the future (if only eh?). Feeling scared is normal I would think. You're starting down a road that COULD cause you problems, it MAY not give you what you hope for...
BUT
You are giving yourself a fighting chance and doing your best with sticking the proverbial two finger up at cancer. You can't ask more of yourself than that.
Have you got your pineapple sticks all ready to suck on?
I have everything crossed. (well I did just have to uncross the eyes though as I couldn't see to finish this message,) and I'm wishing you all the best on your chemo journey.
Sandra