Hi
I did get the name of the drug wrong. It is amitriptilyne. The Doctor told me that it would help with pain. Perhaps his mood as he was a bit down convinced he was dying, and help him to sleep. The biggest problem that he seems to have apart from the obvious is that he has a feeling of pressure in his head. I have asked him to describe it and it seems like to him it feels like he could do with a little hole drilling and letting pressure release. A bit like a pressure cooker. He has been scanned twice in his head area now and it has not shown up anything. Our Doc says that prostate cancer cells don't normally go to the head. The pressure in his head has been stopping him from sleeping and if you add that to the general fatigue he is feeling that doesn't help.
He has gone from somebody who had only ever been in a hospital to visit someone to the exact opposite. 71 years and his medical records only had about a page. So we are taking each day at a time. I have managed to persuade him to do just that. So sometimes he misses his morning walk with the dog. The dog doesn't help as he is our beautiful beardie but he used to be very independent. Slept downstairs only coming up to see us when he wanted food or water or walks. Beardies are very bossy as ours is a working one. He now rarely leaves our side. Staying in the lounge with us and sleeping on the floor of the bedroom. My OH is convinced that he knows something we don't. I think that he is just instinctive and knows something is not right.
His PSA has been tested three times now since the rogue result and the last two were 650 and 643. So going down. They were taken within 10 days of each other. The Doctor did say to me that the response to the hormone injections wasn't as good as they wanted but at least the trend is down.
His hair loss has stopped as well. Which has made him think that the chemotherapy has stopped working. Not that he wants to lose all of his hair. I got him to speak to the Chemotherapy nurses and they said it doesn't always go.
This is a real rollercoaster ride. At least we have a GP who is sympathetic and the oncology nurse and the rest of the team are fantastic. If we need results that the GP doesn't have he will get them for us. He has me doing all the things that he used to do like cooking the dogs dinner and getting it ready for him. Taking him for evening walkies. I think in his head he is making sure that we will be ok if the worst happens. I am looking after myself. I find that I am fine when I am with him but pretty miserable when I am not. Not sure why that is.
Anyway the New Year Looms. I have bought him a great single malt to bring the New Year in. I know we probably shouldn't drink, but this is Scotland and New Year. We need to look forward to the future.
Thanks for your help.
Carol