Well here I am again picking up an old thread because I smile when I look at my optimism title! I tried looking up my very first post because of some questions I asked them and the wonderful support replies I got from the OH’s of spouses.
I started with asking I’ve just been dx and just started a new relationship with a wonderful lady and her two children. We had been going out for a few months then dx and we split up because we were scared and alarmed by cancer. Six weeks later we found each other again and following lots of discussions, laugher and tears we decided, let’s go for it. I may have reduced time but with treatments I could be around 15 or 20 years.
Treatment followed which we got through ok and PSA was down. Life was good and normal and fun. Such fun as a family and I reliased that this was what life’s about. Such good times and we got engaged on a beach on mull of Kintrye and three months later married. Just after that I was told that I needed 10 more rounds of chemo which I thought, that’s fine, I’ve done it before get on with it and we did. That didn’t work and it was then 10 rounds cazataxel which stopped at 6.
Last week at consultation we had “the talk”. Love my doctor and have had so much faith in her. I feel she has done her upmost for me and trust her. So when see says I have 12 but closer to 6 months left, I believe her. I’ll try my best to disprove her but you never know with this fecking pca.
So my question now is for the OH of survivors of pca partners. How do you cope with dealing with it. How do you deal with telling children? Does the downhill come quickly. What are you supposed to do!!! I don’t bloody know and don’t know how to cope. I still feel completely healthy and have no symptoms. No one who doesn’t know me wouldn’t I had . I’ve only felt ill doing chemo. This is pants. The last two weeks have been a dream and i appear to be living in two different worlds. Normal and what the feck worlds.
What’s my next step? And know what, I get to adopt my girls this month.