Such a tough thing to do, well done, you are very brave. I guess it's inevitable and needs to be done, but it's a really hard thing to do.
It sounds like you are keeping yourself fit and busy and in a funny way, enjoying life. I'm glad it's this way, notwithstanding the coming home to an empty house and having no one to share the vagaries of the day with. It's the little things I guess, that can derail your recovery. I do believe it is a recovery too, you've been through an extremely traumatic experience and need to time recover from that, without even thinking about the outcome and the loss you've borne.
I also always love reading your posts, even the very sad ones always had something special about them and I looked forward to catching up, not the content itself, of course not, as that was tough for us read and for you to endure, but there is something about you that is very special.
A few of our ladies who continue to support men and women affected by this disease have this special vibe, I won't name them, well ok, Mo is one, but I've met her and she is the same in "real life", a special person, you are another.
Thank you for showing us that life can be worth living after the loss of a loved one, many of us are dreading that day but somehow, you are give me hope.