H all, just need to vent s bit, sorry
Took dad to see onc today for his first appt. he was diagnosed a year ago with advanced PC (mets in spine,pelvis and I think his rib) on Zoladex for last twelve months under a Urologist. PSA down at first but found out December if had rocketed to 298 from 14 in July. Transferred to onc now. I struggle to understand why he wasn’t with an onc first. He’s been referred for an urgent mri because of tingling in his legs, which he’s had for several months. Concerned about spinal compression. He’s starting Casodex and going back in six weeks to see if chemo or Abu will be done. He’s got to choose.
Had such a stressful and upsetting day. I keep bursting into tears and struggling. My dad cried today in the car on the way home which broke my heart - he’s not a crier) he’s worried about everyone else, he cries when we talk about his granddaughter (my daughter who he dotes on) trying to be chipper and keep his spirits up but there’s a bloody big elephant in the room that won’t go away.
I honestly don’t know how people cope but sonehow we do. Take care all