Thanks for taking the time to reply both. I just wish the biopsy was over and done with. I was lucky today. We managed to talk about the what ifs. This is major as at one time D was the most uncommunicative of men when it came to himself. Very deep as they say. Since we both became disabled he's much more open thank goodness.
He's very pragmatic, what will be will be and all that, he knows that after 30 years of marriage I will support him no matter what to the ends of the earth and back.
I think I feel more settled today but maybe that's just exhaustion from the bowel prep for my colonoscopy tomorrow. Won't take up anyone's time but will update as soon as we know about the biopsy.
Thanks again. I'll spend the rest of the time browsing the forum. What an amazing bunch you are