Hi it’s so lovely to hea r from you ,thankyou, I’m new to this kinda thing but it’s so nice to know I’m not alone in feeling the way I do, my husband is 65 use to be a work acolic very private kinda guy, (old school) has had t4oubles for few years urinating constantly throughout the night then went into retention, had catheter etc, then a TURP it was then he was told he had Cancer it was found in the clippings taken ( was told if he had realised this he never would of done the op turp) but it’s done now so too late for 5hevwhat ifs and buts ects if u no wat I mean, so had 3 MDT meetings apparently to try to decide the best routes to go.. anyway they opted for 18 months hormone therapy in which he became very abusive and nasty angry etc, it’s been a hard road to stay on if you no what I mean, but he’s had 37 days radiotherapy and meeting others in same situation daily was k8nda nice for me as I didn’t feel so alone which is kinda hard to say, my hubby Paul he just leans on me for everything and I try my best to stand tall and positive and won’t have negative thoughts like he does, soits a constant battle if you no what I mean, anyway, he’s ok at mo bit peed off sontimes passes blood in urine , pas has risen a little, but like I said previously it’s I dunno do we worry about it or not, I so appreciate your answers , and knowing I’m not alone in my worry’s is nice, thankyou..... plz can you tell me why after radio therapy having been a grade 8 4+4 T 3 stage will still be same, i being nieve 5hought it would of reduced it kinda made it a lower grade? Wishful thinking I guess? Thanks guys for hopefully understanding how I’m feeling and how my hubby Paul must be feeling inside. He doesn’t talk to me he’s kinda become silent and in his own little Paul bubble!