Lynn - thanks. I forgot that I am protected (It a;so counts as a disability). I am also going to review my retirement options as well as I hate idea of of being a desk jockey for any length of time, illness notwithstanding!
Francij1 - think caffeine withdrawal and a mild hangover bit my bum there. The withdrawal is due to the fact I found out something this last week about my lifestyle that I was in denial about. I did a cold assessment of my caffeine intake recently owing to some palpitations and realised I was in denial about mega dosing caffeine with poor hydration. Not only the physical side effects (budum budum budumptity budumptity budumptity budumptity bum urgh that does not feel right) but the high levels of anxiety. I think the caffeine was countering the meds I am on. Allowing for Xmas booze I feel a lot better with the crashes directly correlated to naughty drinkies.
What was interesting about having a clearer head was that something was bugging me about what I originally posted about my recurrence and with a rare very clear head went back to my calendar and reviewed the dates things happened. It turns out I was a bit innacurate in my reporting due to no dount being in a right tizz and rushing things all the time. My BCR was actually nigh on ten months (not the random numbers less than that that I kept posting) and it was nigh on ten weeks between the 0.16 and 0.24 owing to the rebooked delayed onco appointment. Caffeine and stress clearly destroyed my mahematic ability. These numbers are a bit better but they are still what they are.
What it does show is that I needed to weed out lifestyle issues that were hidden to me or I was in denial about that were having an effect. The take out is that it is useful to stop, take stock and listen to yourself and see what feels off then do something about it.
Next steps - no booze after New Year and back on the diet and fitness and find a bl**dy job.
I wish you all a good new year and a 2019 full of good news and good people.