Well it's now 10 weeks since my RP operation. I'm back at work and doing my best to just get on with things. I still need to wear pads, but they are the very thin light ones. Still waiting to see a specialist to discuss and address the ED (appointment end of the month), but I am on 50mg of Sildenafil every third day.
Everyone comments at work and socially how well I look and on a positive note, I'd rather look like the old Rick then have an appearance that many assume cancer survivors should look like! However, whilst I strive to be upbeat, I still don't always feel positive and still have down days. Inside I'm a long way from my old self, for some work gives them a purpose, but that's not how I currently feel, it's merely a means to keeping a roof over my head. Not looking forward to the annual appraisal process next month, having to demonstrate enthusiasm, prove your worth, promote your achievements, commit to development, when all I want to do is either be left alone to get on with my job or better still get early retirement, which unfortunately is not possible! I guess again on a positive note, I'm fortunate to have a job, appreciate many men have to deal with their prostate cancer whilst unemployed, but I've had enough of the "rat race"and the endless pace of change in the work place.
Edited by member 11 Feb 2020 at 21:48
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