I don't often come on here now as I find it quite hard to read what others are going through. It was nice of you to write Misty.
I am ok , having a few health issues of my own but being monitored, so nothing terrible at the moment, will just need regular scans to make sure nothing has changed
I have applied for several rescue dogs but as yet have not been successful.Sometimes I think they might take my age into consideration and think I am too old to take on a young dog.
I have seen my grand-daughter once a fortnight and have been out with my family which has been nice. I spend a lot of time in my garden and have had a go at painting a couple of scenes. Very relaxing.
The grief is like being on a roller coaster. I miss my lovely G every single moment of every day, but I am coping. My children have been great
Sometimes tears spill out at a random thought and certain things make me cry easily.
I had another long talk with G's oncologist and I feel more settled now as nothing could have changed the outcome. G's cancer went rogue after the chemotherapy and accelerated. Nothing could have saved him and the correct procedures were followed. They tried to make him more comfortable but nothing could have been done to stop the cancer
I miss my old life with G but am trying to stay strong and talk to friends often on the phone. I am still dealing with the final paperwork but hopefully soon it will all be sorted.
I don't have a clear vision of my future but keep busy. I walk a lot and take photos and think of all our happy times together. I play our favourite music loudly and am getting on with all the household jobs that need doing. I put together a new patio set this weekend, giving me a sense of satisfaction and am enjoying driving G's car. I have done a few trips back to Wales and seen old friends there.
Every Saturday morning I know that another week had passed and I dread Father's day, his birthday and what would have been our 50th wedding anniversary.
However, on the whole I am doing ok, life does go on and I can laugh sometimes and can enjoy days out again with family. I will never stop loving my man or feeling proud of his bravery.
I hope and pray that a treatment will be found for this cancer that has less side effects.
Good luck everyone. X