Hi Steve,
Definitely not something to be ashamed about, we’ve all been there and to be honest still sometimes feel that way even nearly a year on.
Its so difficult to take everything in at first. It really does get easier when you find out a bit more information and have a bit of a plan.
Lots of people on here who can also offer help and support along the way.
Take care, best of luck and will look out for your progress updates 👍🏽