Hey again
wanted to update on a few things.
I’ve already talked about a few bits in other posts but today I thought would share more.
im 49. Gleason 7. PSA was 4.7 prostate removed by robot and amazing surgeon 2.5 weeks ago
Saw my consultant for histology a few days ago. Good news but scary news.
clear margins is all you need to hear and understand. But was told cancer was T3 and breached capsule. At this point I was craving English translation. Am I ok? Answer was yea but dodged a bullet I was told. Again.
I feel relieved and angry. Angry at how close o was to something very very serious and life threatening. Relieved that it’s gone. And hope for good.
consultant explained the cancer was outside prostate but with the area they took away it was contained. Clear margins. Lucky isn’t the word.
he also managed nerve sparring on both sides and thankfully took enough for a clear margin. He said this was lucky I think on his part and clearly mine too.
mixed emotions. When I think about a brush with death I cry instantly. When I hear a song which reminds me of winning or beating odds I cry. Generally I’m good though.
PSA in a month will reveal more but expecting good news. I’m being positive again. Worst is over.
icing on the cake… ED appears not to be an issue. Had a few signs of life and Saturday morning took a little blue pill for support and hey presto. All present and correct.
feels odd to be normal again.
Almost feels wrong to be ok when so close to not being. I said to my wife last night that all that worry was such a drama and waste of time after all. We laughed a bit but I know I’m lucky.
my son aged 15 said why are you so lucky Dad? I’d hardly say this is lucky but he also refers to my breaking my leg and being told won’t walk properly again or run yet I still play football. My only answer was karma. I’m a good person and maybe that’s enough? Or just plain old lucky.
my learning, when you look at the odds and stats picture yourself in the good end not the bad. Won’t always work out but what if it does! Positive mental attitude has to count for something.