It's now three years - and no less than TWELVE four-monthly reviews - since I declined to accept any further Decapeptyl injections and I'm still holding out.
During that time my PSA has gradually risen again, back from almost undetectable in 2023 to 12.0 in January this year. Side-effects, including overnight spasms of arm pain accompanied by much less intense hot flushes, have never completely gone away despite my oncologist assuring me that my testerone has returned to normal, meaning there can be no remaining traces in my system of the HT treatment.
He was unable to give any reason as to why side effects were still a problem, instead referring me back to my GP. This led me to round of various tests and scans, none of which showed anything wrong. To be fair, the rest of the time I am perfectly fine. There was/is actually nothing at all wrong with my arms, they function perfectly normally. So I am left with the only one alternative conclusion, which is that my brain must be to blame!
Sure enough, a quick AI check reveals the following:
'Yes, the brain can create real pain without physical injury or tissue damage. Pain is actually constructed in the brain as a protective mechanism, not just a direct reflection of injury. This is known as neuroplastic or psychogenic pain, occurring when the nervous system becomes oversensitive, or when stress, emotions, or past trauma trigger pain signals.
Key facts about pain created by the brain:
Real Pain, No Damage: when your brain perceives a threat (emotional or physical), it can trigger pain signals even if no structural damage exists
Neuroplastic/Chronic Pain: this pain can develop when brain pain circuits remain highly sensitive long after a physical injury has healed
Role of Emotions: stress, anxiety, depression, and suppressed emotions (e.g., anger, fear) can cause the brain to produce physical pain, such as headaches or back pain
Reversible Process: because this pain is based on the brain's interpretation of danger, it is possible to "retrain" the nervous system, reduce sensitivity, and experience relief
It is important to remember that this type of pain is not "fake" or "in your head"—it is a real sensation experienced in the body, driven by neural circuits.'
Meantime my oncologist, making allowances for the side effects on my overall health, agreed that provided annual bone scans remain clear, it would be okay for me to continue with my HT holiday until they begin reveal the extent of the cancer or alternatively by the time my PSA reaches 20, whichever is the sooner.
So now, back to the present: my next review on April 17 will reveal the findings of my latest bone scan and PSA test.
Wish me luck!