I'm really sorry to hear how things are going for you and your father. Thankfully I have never been in your or his position. Knowing no more about your situation than your one post, I will have to make assumptions, so forgive me if I get things wrong.
I think you and he know that he has not got very long left. It may be weeks or possibly months. I'm going to assume he is a proud man as you say he resisted the offer of morphine. Facing up to his own imminent death and having to accept drugs and watching his own body deteriorating will be very hard for someone who has been proud and independent before. So I can understand why he may be like he is. We have had posts from people where the dieing (partner/parent) becomes abusive and that is not acceptable, particularly when a couple are living together. However you are not living together so you do always have the safety of your own home, and if you have other family and friends for support all the better.
I think baring in mind the above, you might just have to accept his snappiness, he really hasn't got long left. I don't know how often you are visiting him, don't forget you are entitled to lead your own life so take time for yourself. Talk to the hospice staff about how you are feeling they have probably seen it all before. They may or may not have suggestions, but just talking to them might help you.
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Thank you so much for responding Dave, he is indeed a very proud man, with 22 years service in the Army. I will definitely have a word with the hospice staff. He was only moved to the hospice Monday and have visited every day. Thank you for your advice, this is a journey I did not want to be on, it’s so sad to see my dad becoming so dependent on other people. Emma
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Sorry to read this. Dave makes good points. All I can add really is don't do anything you may regret. It's so easy to think you didn't do enough or regret something you did later. On the other hand you can't turn the tide so don't over do it. Peter