Many Thanks for your helpful replies.
I will definitely explore the second opinion route with the marsden, to be honest i have become a little frustrated with my treatment from my oncologist, i used to have a meeting with him and blood tests every 3 months at the start of my diagnosis, now i am aware covid changed many things, but in the last 3 years i can honestly say i have only seen my oncologist face to face on 1 occasion, and that was only because i demanded it, i have also had only 1 scan in that time, again because i demanded it.
Since then it has been a blood test and a very quick phone call from my oncologist to inform me of my results every 4 months, as i said i have enquired about being referred, this was refused, i have enquired about trials, again dismissed stating i am not at that stage yet and have more treatment options available, i am beginning to struggle, have noticed my mobility getting worse and feel i am starting to fade, doing less and less, am i being slightly paranoid? or is this similar to others getting treatment for stage 4?
I am now also attending the hospice for treatment including calcium infusion for bone pain and have also been prescribed Morphine for my pain, while i was at first reluctant to take the morphine, concerned i will be needing this later in my journey and become slightly immune to it, however i have surprisingly found i needed to take it, and on a more regular basis, in particular at night to help me sleep, and even during the night when the pain has woke me.
This has caused me to start searching other options, and to question my treatment, and also wonder why they leave trials as the last option? in my case anyway.