Hi Thuddly,
I know it’s really difficult, but as my Onco said to me(he’s not got the best bedside manner!) don’t overthink this.
Get the MRI scan and see what it’s saying and what the MDT offer you as treatment options. Sounds like you favour HT/RT and that’s a good choice if you choose that over surgery(if it’s offered). Both should have similar outcomes. Neither is an easy choice, both have side effects and although surgery is done by robot it’s STILL MAJOR SURGERY…and there are risks and side effects such as long term erectile dysfunction and incontinence.
HT also has MANY side effects, some men have few mild side effects, others get them all and they affect their QOL.
One thing I would say, if I had been offered 5 sessions of RT with no HT, I would probably have chosen that over either of the other options.
I know it’s hard but please try and take your mind off things ATM and concentrate and building up your physical and mental state prior to any treatment starting….it really does make a difference. I felt lousy this morning, fatigued and feeling generally unwell, I got my ebike out, did a 32 mile circuit taking in some of Edinburghs beauty spots, stopping for a Costa(always need a flat white to buck me up😊) and stopping for lunch at Cramond harbour. I got home about 2pm feeling full of energy and like a new woman(just a little joke of mine🤣🤣).
So give yourself some treats, get out for a walk, go to the gym, take the wife out for lunch and try and have some fun😊 Trust me, it really helps and will get you into a better state of mind for when/if you have to make a decision about treatment.
Derek