Hi Murdock
Sorry you’re in this situation and feeling so anxious.
Maybe once you have treatment you might find yourself in a better place, as instead of the constant anxiety AS is causing you, you’ll actually be treating the problem.
I hope it might help you to know my husband decided AS wasn’t for him, and chose RT.
He followed a low residue diet for a week before and throughout treatment, and found the RT to be fine, the worst part was finding a parking space at the busy hospital.
Sometimes doing something is better than doing nothing.
Good luck whatever route you decide. Please consider seeking help and support for your anxiety.