I am very sympathetic to this anxiety around PSA test results and basically having to live the rest of my life with regular testing.
Having just finished last May 18 months of zoladex which achieved a PSA nadir of <0.01 and testosterone ending with <0.5 for Gleason 9 after previously failed HIFU after only 6 months even though diagnosed g7 after 2 biopsies as Gleason 7 (3++<10% 4) confined to one side, then g9.
So my last 3 month result went from <0.01 to <0.3 at the same lab or rather my GP. and my testosterone up to only 0.8. Logically I know this is still undectable. I await my 2nd 3 monthly PSA and testosterone after stopping ADT tomorrow and I still can’t stop getting increasingly anxious and going down a less than positive mental path … despite my meditation practice and having weekly therapy.
I used to work in an area where I met and was around many PCa patients so I often feel I know too much. To be frank having been reassured so many times when my PCa was G7 and 2 biopsy and 4 MRIs from 2020-2022 medics kept reassuring it was low intermediate risk - and then they were over optimistic so it was a huge shock, I at least hoped the HIFU might delay things for a few years!
So now the phrase it’s a really good treatment response and very good chance of long term control if not permanent remission as I’m 74 is less than reassuring. Then the caveat but this is G9 and so am aggressive form and as I had a small prostate with HIFU and RT a small PSA rise is worth investigating.
So these arbitrary test thresholds don’t help and my history of having to question again and again and get retest and been proved right and the medics often rather over dismissive of risk obviously feeds my anxiety.
Right now I’m in a pre test high anxiety that my test tomorrow will not be great - irrational as I can’t change it by worry but the brain is a risk averse organ that seems with me to be super vigilant until the test is over ….. then assuming its ok this time the roller coaster will start again!
I am sure I’m not unique and yet some do handle this so much better ! Is it genetic or some trick I haven’t learnt yet ?
Another anxious ramble so if you got this far - thanks !
Edited by member 02 Nov 2024 at 07:26
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