Hi all
I am 39, my PSA after a routine check was 7 - I had the blood test because my father died from Prostate Cancer years ago so obv have a clear family history
I immediately went into panic mode and to be honest i've not been great since I heard I was referred on 2WW for an MRI - no retest PSA, no DRE, nothing just a call to say I've been referred for an MRI.
I have partner aged 34 and a 2 year old so I should be in prime of life enjoying myself but this is just hanging over me, I can't stop thinking about worst case scenarios. I've been to GP for some zopiclone sleeping pills it's that bad, and have lost 4kg from not eating in a week. I've been having water and meal replacement shakes because I just can't eat. My partner suggested getting some CBT therapy and maybe try getting beta blockers or something because I just can't see an end to it and can't function properly due to the anxiety. Was almost vomiting this morning from the stress. My partner is very supportive I've been ringing her/messaging her with my worries and when I start to "spiral" and she does calm me down but she can't reassure me I don't have cancer. Her viewpoint is that if it is cancer it's probably very early and very treatable. She even said if I need surgery etc she is fully in support of that, she is a "we'll cross that bridge when we come to it" type of person. I wish I could be but I just can't get out of this panic/anxiety that's set in.
I had my MRI this morning in and out 30 mins, went up to Urology hoping they might say "we'll call you later with results" but they couldn't reassure me at all when results might be. I then went to see a private Urologist, he was great, he did a DRE and said that prostate felt enlarged but regular, and that this was good. He also said if there's anything cancerous it would most likely be contained in the prostate but he won't know until he sees my MRI. He did say he will try and take a look at it today as he works at the NHS dept I go to also and is working there today and tomorrow. Was v grateful for this.
He said PSA could be high because that's just the norm for me, it could be because prostate is enlarged, it could be cancer - obviously he can't say. He didn't find anything concerning from examining me but did say he could tell I was very stressed and worried. I just know I am going to be even more on the ceiling if he rings me and says I need a biopsy. My partner is genuinely worried as to how I will cope. I haven't been out, done anything, seen friends etc for a week and I can't muster the desire to go out for the day or do anything I just feel in limbo.