Thanks for your responses guys, as always you are so supportive. i should have posted a while ago.🤦♂️
I have nothing to feel angry about, I’m away on a River cruise on Saturday and hopefully I will have my positive PSA result back by then. My surgery is now refusing to give me a Testosterone Test and its costs a fortune in the UK to get it done privately(unless someone knows of somewhere at a reasonable price?), so I’ll wait until I’m out in Fuerteventura where I can get it done cheaply at 25€.
The problem is my wife never brings me to task when I am like this, she is just so tolerable of people(even me!) but I know it upsets her when she just goes quiet. So I’ve told her to just say to me ‘Please don’t speak to me like that!’ Firmly…and keep doing it until I behave, and since we had that conversation she’s not had to do it once. I’ve actually had a much better weekend…maybe it’s because I’m back on here? Oh, and some Retail Therapy at the Next Sale getting ready for the cruise😊
I do have issues with my mother-in-law, who is 97 and still in her own home, but only because of the care provided by my wife and her sister. This requires 2 or 3 days a week of travelling 45 minutes to be with her mum for most of the day. Sometimes I feel like we’re being robbed of our retirement- we’ve been looking after elderly relatives for the last 20 years. I know I’m being selfish but I think since I was diagnosed with PCa I just want us to enjoy every minute of our time together without always having the burden of having to think about others before we do anything. Maybe faced with our own mortality makes you feel as though you want to look after Number 1.
Anyway I’ve babbled on for long enough😊 - I’ll post my PSA result on Friday and make an effort to be more involved in this fantastic Community again.
take care everyone,
Derek