My hubby has aggressive, incurable G9 PC diagnosed in 2015. Since last year the cancer has spread into lymph nodes and bones despite all the hormone therapy and 10 cycles of Docetaxel only had a minimal effect on it. His PSA, which had reduced from 95 to 6.4, started rising again as soon as it finished. He’s just had his 2nd cycle of Cabazitaxel (apparently known as a ‘last resort’ chemo) and we’ve yet to find out whether it’s started working. Possibly some RA-223 after that.
From the posts by others in much the same situation, it looks very much as though the options are running out and suddenly it feels like the end of the road is approaching. We’re trying to be philosophical (after all, he’s lasted longer than many men) and are playing it down to friends and acquaintances.
Unlike me, my hubby has always rejected forums, support groups, counselling, research etc so has always been a bit in the dark about the various treatments he’s been on. I haven’t told him about the above-mentioned posts, but even he has the feeling that time is running out at last going by some of his recent remarks.
His way of forgetting about it is to immerse himself in his voluntary work while I find Buddhist mindfulness meditation helpful but it always feels as if there’s a dark cloud overhead these days and times when I start worrying about getting end of life care (after my friend’s awful experience); also dreading being without him after having been together for 57 years. All we can do now is make the most of our time together.
Sorry – just needed to vent!