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Posted 07 Nov 2018 at 19:50

My previous threads mostly consisted of questions about advanced cancer management and treatment plans and side effects.

Although at this precise moment in time my husband is still taking Abiraterone for cancer management and having 3 monthly Zoladex injections, his symptoms have progressed and he is very unwell.

We'll know whether treatment will continue at the next onco appointment on 16/11/18.

Current symptoms :

Gross haematuria  (bleeding from the prostate expelled through urine/uretra)

Tiredness (sleeping on and off all day)

Low sodium

Low hb

Loss of appetite and taste buds

Weight loss

The biggest problem is the haematuria,  it has landed oh in hospital 3 times in the last 3 weeks. He has had a catheter fitted to help but this is now blocked with clots all the time.

He was admitted again on Monday with a blocked catheter and had been placed on continuous irrigation. 3ltr bags of fluid are passed into his bladder and simultaneously flushed out through a 3 way catheter. This has eased his symptoms enormously but as soon as the irrigation stops he clots.

This treatment is not available in the hospice setting or at home. His urologist has decided that they will have to have a look and attempt to cauterise or stem the bleeding. If it works this may only last a couple of weeks before new vessels rupture but at least it will be a couple of weeks free from pain.

Over the course of 3 days he has had around 30 bags flushed through his bladder. The hope was that this would allow the vessels to stop bleeding.it hasn't happened. 

As long as the catheter is free from clots, oh isn't in any pain, just exhausted from the continuous disruption of bag changing.

I have great support around me, neighbours taking the youngest (15) to the bus stop for school, mum cooking the dinner for all of us, family and friends popping in to visit oh and allowing me time to come home to see the kids.

When someone offers to help, I think of things that I could do but don't want to because I'd rather spend my time with my husband and children.

I've just asked my son (17) to do the bins for the first time....I probably could have done it myself in the time it took to explain how to do it!

I'm hoping they take him to surgery tomorrow and let him out on Monday  (I don't want to be dealing with issues over the weekend ) Fingers crossed for a couple of weeks respite.x

 

 

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Posted 24 Jan 2019 at 19:57
Thank you everyone for your words of support.

WE ARE HOME!!!!!!!

Just a couple of hiccups along the way, transport not arriving and having to find a wheelchair cab at school pick up time, needing to pick up sleeping tablets (zopiclone) from chemists as there wasn't any for N to take home from hospice but apart from that it went OK.

We have just done our first bedtime routine of catheter flush/night bag/remake bed/bring my camp bed downstairs etc.

I have set alarms for the drugs, set a reminder for the fentanyl patch and I am bloomin exhausted.

It's only 7.50pm, too early to go to bed really so I am pottering about trying to regain some order in the rest of the house.

My lovely mum cooked the dinner and has offered to cook every night. I am soooooo lucky. Otherwise it's going to be toast, toast and a bit more toast I think.

The carer arrived about 10 mins after we got home, she would also have been the bedtime one but we are allowed to say no thank you to any of the bookings so N said he didn't want help tonight, he just wanted to settle down.

They will be back in the morning to wash him and get him ready for the day, then roughly 3.5 to 4 hours after that if we want them. It's much more flexible than I thought it would be.

I am hoping we are not first in the morning😄 so I can have a lay in. The kids are going into school late and we are going to have breakfast together. McDonald's I believe 🍔

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Posted 25 Jan 2019 at 17:55
A pretty good day, not Maccie d's but a local independent coffee shop breakfast instead, yay the kids have grown out of the Golden Arches allure 😄

N had a toasted cheese sandwich with the crusts cut off, this is important because he wears dentures and crusts are his enemy (even with polygrip).

The carers have been 3 times so far today, first visit this morning at 9am coincided with the breakfast so we agreed N would have a wash at lunch time, when they arrived at lunch he was fast asleep so we left him. They came back at 5pm and washed him then. It's all pretty relaxed and totally about what N wants or doesn't want to do.

I've managed to do some reorganisation and feel a little more feng shui, though being home with the kids is not relaxing at all....

We have a caravan by the sea, my profile pick is a pretty good representation of the sunset there. The site reopens on March 1st, N's goal is to be able to get in the car so we can go there, either before it opens and just be at the sea or when it opens and sit on the decking.

He's still got goals and I am hopeful we might achieve them.

Tonight's goal, watch an episode of something we've been recording without falling asleep. 😊

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Posted 07 Nov 2018 at 21:19

Kentish

So sorry to read about these complications.

I notice you’ve got teenagers.  I’m a secondary school headteacher.  If you haven’t done so already, you should contact the school’s exams officer as your children are entitled to special consideration in national exams such as GCSEs and A levels.  For cancer, pupils are often given a 3% uplift to their results, which could mean the difference between a B and a C, for example.

Ulsterman

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Posted 07 Nov 2018 at 20:28

Simply awful for everyone concerned. I just don’t know what I could say or how it could even help. But desperately sorry and sending strength and love to each of you x

Edited by member 07 Nov 2018 at 20:29  | Reason: Not specified

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Posted 07 Nov 2018 at 21:02

Kentish

That is an horrible situation to be in. As regards the anti spasm medication they can take couple of weeks to be effective, I have tried most of them and found one called Regurin to be the most effective,but give the vesicare a chance to work. I suffered with passing lots of debris and clots from the bladder but nothing like you describe your husband's situation. Bit of a catch 22 ,a bigger diameter catheter may not get blocked so quickly but it can be more painful and make the penis ache. I have a permanent SPC so size is not so much of an issue. I still pass debris, the blood clots did take a few weeks to subside. I have flushing bottles and at the first sign of a blockage I flush my catheter, fortunately they are quite rare and I am not sure they would help in your situation. 

Hope you both get some respite from the situation soon.

Thanks Chris

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Posted 07 Nov 2018 at 21:19

Kentish

So sorry to read about these complications.

I notice you’ve got teenagers.  I’m a secondary school headteacher.  If you haven’t done so already, you should contact the school’s exams officer as your children are entitled to special consideration in national exams such as GCSEs and A levels.  For cancer, pupils are often given a 3% uplift to their results, which could mean the difference between a B and a C, for example.

Ulsterman

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Posted 07 Nov 2018 at 21:38

Thank you Chris, being able to put it down in writing is cathartic, we all unconsciously edit ourselves when we're speaking face to face or over the phone etc. I usually do it because I start crying and have to get control of myself. Other than blurring the keys on the phone, tears aren't a problem when you're typing!

Just knowing that I can put it here is a relief. I'm not bottling up my feelings but it really doesn't help to be crying by oh's bedside all day....I save it for when I have 5 mins and can sob loudly and messily.

Best wishes

Katie

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Posted 07 Nov 2018 at 21:45

I didn't know that Ulsterman, I shall certainly ask as the eldest has been really struggling with his a levels, dropping from an A/B average to a U!. I have spoken to school about the kind of support Son needs,  and I will request this in my next email to them. 

(He's since crept back up to a B) stern words from Dad and better understanding from school about the sensation of being "stuck" and how this is best dealt with.

Thank you

Katie

 

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Posted 07 Nov 2018 at 21:51

Thanks Chris, the general bladder spasms have subsided and now it is only spasming when there is a clot to pass.

I'm really hoping that he gets a couple of weeks respite from this, it is a horrible symptom and not something we can manage at home :(

He's got a size 16, apparently they can go up to a 22, I think he'd agree to the penis pain in return for no retention!

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Posted 07 Nov 2018 at 21:54
Son's still not managed to get the bins out....
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Posted 07 Nov 2018 at 22:35
Ah, too late I see Ulsterman has already made similar comments to the ones I have made on the other thread. Great minds think alike!
"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards." Soren Kierkegaard

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Posted 07 Nov 2018 at 22:49

Hi Lynn, 

Yes I've always had trouble getting off to sleep.  Enormous amounts of physical activity work best for me but of late I mostly sit. Keeping oh company. The physical side of caring is tiring but not in the same way, it doesn't offer any relief from the mental gymnastics! 

I will contact their schools re exam concessions. I think the eldest is struggling with his emotions. The hospice have contacted him at my request to have a chat with him. I explained to him that it didn't have to continue but he needed to go at least once to see if it helped answer some questions he might have.

Friends and family want updates and they want it to be hopeful,

I've run out......I just want him to bemail pain free

 

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Posted 07 Nov 2018 at 23:21

Kentish 

If he is "by passing" where the urine and debris is coming out between the catheter and the eye of the penis a bigger catheter might make that more uncomfortable. If the clots are coming from the prostate I would imagine getting the clots down the urethra with a catheter in is going to be difficult and uncomfortable. Instillagel helped me with soreness but did little for the ache of a bigger catheter. 

Thanks Chris

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Posted 08 Nov 2018 at 00:22

Originally Posted by: Online Community Member

Friends and family want updates and they want it to be hopeful,

I've run out......I just want him to be pain free

 

My heart goes out to you. It is only when you are in this situation that you realise that you become the strength for everyone ... you expect to be able to concentrate all your energy on the person who is ill, but in fact you end up having to nurture a whole load of other people as well. Who cares for the carer, that's the challenge. 

"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards." Soren Kierkegaard

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Posted 08 Nov 2018 at 06:50

ColwickChris,  he only bypasses when the catheter has blocked. All the clots have come down the catheter rather than around it. He has Instillagel if he wants it but as long as it's not blocked he's not in any pain.

I found this article :

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4016967/#__ffn_sectitle

Regarding palliative treatment for gross haematuria,  I'm hoping that one of these treatments  will reduce his symptoms to a management level for him to come home. 

I need to ask today what happens if it's not successful, where does he go?

I don't know if he moves from the urology ward to a permanent ward, do they even exist anymore!

Lynn,

Exactly, I have a plan to have one home contact, one work contact and one general contact. These lovely people then relay any info to everybody else.

I'm just off to the hospital for morning rounds at 8am.xx.  fingers crossed for a cystoscopy and some relief today.xx

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Posted 08 Nov 2018 at 19:49

No cystoscopy today but scheduled first on the list tomorrow, we'll see!

The irrigation has been slowed right down and although his urine is still pink, there hasn't been any massive clots passed.

Oh is more lucid and coherent than he's been for weeks. I'm going to ask what his sodium is in the morning and his hb, apparently the sodium irrigation fluid increases sodium levels, for oh this is a good thing.

Surgeon said the plan is to scrape clots, cauterise visible bleeds and perform TURP if necessary. They'll decide once they've had a look. I am hopeful but realistic that none of these might happen. Recovery is only supposed to be a day and oh shouldn't need a catheter, I am also realistic that neither of these will apply also. 

Surgeon hopes that his will give a couple of months respite from the haematuria. 

Making he most of it: we played sudoko together, solitaire and giggled over the suppositories he was given this morning to help open his bowels...from behind the curtain came "cor blimey, I don't normally put anything up there!" 

The kids visited after school, he had a spasm which entails lots of swearing and wind passing and although he is in agony he still managed to laugh and tell the kids not to repeat the words he used ;)

Xx

 

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Posted 09 Nov 2018 at 22:31
Cystoscopy and TURP performed this morning.

Findings were a very large prostate and a large clot.

Sodium is 130: No wonder oh seems "sparky"

Hopefully removing irrigation catheter tomorrow and getting oh up out of bed. He's got up twice in the last 5 days, the spasms start as soon as he moves. Fingers crossed these stop now.

Still on restricted fluids onco appointment next Friday.

Maybe coming home tomorrow.xx

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Posted 09 Nov 2018 at 22:45

Kentish

I will keep my fingers crossed for you. Best wishes .

Thanks Chris

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Posted 10 Nov 2018 at 11:33
Surgeon removed a large clot from the prostate and did a bi-polar TURP to try and reduce sodium loss. Oh had a pint of blood in surgery as hb was down to 80.

Catheter has been removed and we are awaiting the first urination!

Awaiting bloods to monitor sodium and hb but possibly going home later...Oh feeling very positive that he'll have a bit of respite for a while.

Our Urology ward is fantastic, the care has been consistent across shift changes and they have always found time to have a quick chat with oh. A&E on Monday night was atrocious once he'd been admitted and I was afraid to leave him, so I didn't.

The nurses on urology have told us what's happening as we go and confirmed that had it not stopped bleeding oh would have been moved to the Oncology ward to receive ongoing treatment.

So, waiting.....

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Posted 11 Nov 2018 at 13:57

...and we're home. 

Oh peed freely and opened bowels. Sodium down to 124 and it's noticeable in his lethargy and sleepiness. Really lost his appetite now so not eating salty things to help. 

Discharged because other than stay on restricted fluids there isn't anything else urology plan to do, Oncology are supposed to be dealing with the low sodium.

Urologist said they sent the tissue off for histology, to see if it was prostate cancer, prostate tissue or something else. He said it was obstructing the bladder and in the bladder. Let's hope for something really boring like prostate tissue. .....

Oh to have bloods done again this week to check sodium, concerted effort to entice him with the saltiest foods now to improve it back up to the 130 range. 

Oh cried when we left, he thought he was never coming out. ..I have to say I felt a bit like that this morning as I watched him sleeping with all the noise around us.

Xx

 

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Posted 13 Nov 2018 at 22:24
Poor oh is feeling very battered.

Yesterday:

Not eaten since Saturday lunch time and dreadful burping going on.

Incontinent everytime he stands up and so very, very tired.

Today:

There were points last night when I nudged oh with my foot to check he was still alive. That's not a dramatisation, that's the reality. I asked him several times if he wanted me to take him back to hospital.

Today we spread his medications out and he is taking omeprozole and metoclopromide to combat the burping and the nausea.

He has regained some continence and has managed a tiny bit of chicken soup for tea.

He's slept a lot today but nothing like yesterday's almost comatose state.

This evening he asked for some ice cream.

He has a very sore abdomen when he urinates and is generally aching all over.

Community nurses came today to take bloods, they'll call if anything required tomorrow.

Collected the "anticipatory medicines" from the chemists, possibly the most disheartening thing I've done in a while.

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Posted 13 Nov 2018 at 23:22
I am so sorry Kentish; for some reason I didn’t see your update on the 11th until now. Pleased that you have managed to get him home - I can understand why he might be reluctant to ever have to endure A&E again. I do hope that the community team are able to provide all the support you need now; they were my saviours when I was caring for my mum at home.

Has anyone taken that bin out for you yet?

"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards." Soren Kierkegaard

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Posted 13 Nov 2018 at 23:54
What an ordeal! Hope things now ease for OH.
Barry
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Posted 14 Nov 2018 at 10:08

Haha Lynn, eventually it made its way outside!  The children are very good at scurrying off quietly and taking advantage of my exhaustion. They very quietly heap their stuff in the sink, and leave a trail of coats, shoes etc behind them. I've just come downstairs to be greeted by last nights pudding bowls/cups and this mornings breakfast things....they got themselves ready and out of the house though! 

The community team will be out tomorrow for our "initial assessment " I feel we are playing catch up here but never mind,  at least something is happening. 

Oh has just asked whether we have any bacon, and if I could run are bath for him. This is a massive improvement on comatose Monday, we may make Fridays appointment after all.

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Posted 16 Nov 2018 at 23:44
Update:

Oh managed to get dressed today, first time in 2 weeks. He also managed a short walk down the road to my mum's for a bit of lunch. Last night we had a very nice bit of sirloin. I can't remember the last time we ate steak, it's been years. It was bloody lush.

He only ate half last night so he finished off the cold bit this morning, after a bowl of porridge.

But that was it for the day, he lost his appetite after that and didn't fancy anything later.

Oncology appointment :

A mixed bag, oh had questions such as, "why did it take so bloody long to do something about the urinary retention and haematuria?" and "do I have to stay on restricted fluids forever?"

Mine were "can you see whether the Abiraterone is having a positive effect underneath the current symptoms? "

"What do you think is causing the sodium loss and can it be treated or prevented?"

Onco asked oh what had been going on the last few weeks, oh's reply was "I'm not really sure, it's difficult to remember. "

Negatives: onco mentioned SIADH and Small Cell Carcinoma as likely reason for sodium loss and why oh hasn't responded well to the conventional treatments. He thinks oh has probably got a mixture. We'll know when the histology is back in a couple of weeks from the turp.

Positives: OH has a prescription for sodium supplement and a bumper pack of dexamethazone for a little jump start. Hopefully the steroids will make oh feel better and sodium means he can have a coffee whenever he wants.

Radiotherapy is also on offer if the haematuria continues.

Although oh's bloods were all over the place (oncos words), his bone profile showed an improvement. Based on this, if todays blood test shows a continued improvement (results are monday) then Abiraterone is to continue for another 4 week cycle. Oh doesn't have the dreadful bone ache in his hip and pelvis anymore, that is something to be thankful for.

I'm not surprised at the small cell, oh's cancer symptoms haven't followed a typical path for prostate cancer. In a weird way I am relieved that the onco has brought this up as it's a bizarre validation that I am not going crazy and I don't have Munchausen by proxy, I was right to think oh was poorlier than expected and knowing how relentless small cell cancers are (my dad had sc lung cancer) I can stop feeling I have failed in my duty to look after my husband. It's a vicious b****** of a disease and we never stood a chance.

Xx

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Posted 17 Nov 2018 at 00:14

I had also wondered whether it was small cell or possibly mucinous PCa. It might cheer you a little to look up Cookiegirl and Edamo - her husband’s cancer possibly developed from adenocarcinoma to SCC so her story may be a little closer to what you are dealing with. 

Edited by member 17 Nov 2018 at 00:21  | Reason: Not specified

"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards." Soren Kierkegaard

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Posted 19 Nov 2018 at 19:50
Update:

Although his results were "poor" oh has been given another 4 weeks of Abiraterone. I didn't ask for specifics other than the sodium and hb, 123 and 93 respespectively.

The nurse said that there was enough of a responseries regarding his bone profile to continue. This is reflected in the lack of pain around the metastases in his pelvis and thigh.

He's taking 6mg of dexamethazone but it hasn't really has much effect on his appetite. He's only picking at a few things and still using metoclopromide for the nausea.

Chemist hadn't had the delivery of sodium supplement (I can't remember the name), should have it tomorrow.

He's passing 1 or 2 clots every time he urinates, specialist nurses said to expect this for the next few weeks....he's in agony each time and going for a poo is something else! Palliative care suggested taking oramorph and paracetamol at the same time and regularly and if this doesn't work then changing to zomorph slow release and using the oramorph and paracetamol as top ups when he goes to the toilet. Which in turn requires more laxative.

I'm really hoping the sodium supplement works so he can increase his fluids which will make toileting easier on his system.

Podiatrist coming on Wednesday, much laughter in our house and from the clinic at my ability to cope with pee, poo, sick and blood but not feet!

Omg I am not touching his toenails.....

The goal this week is to be able to come to the cinema on Friday to watch Fantactic Beasts 2, the goal tomorrow is to wash AND shave...

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Posted 20 Nov 2018 at 07:49
Kentish you are a 🌟 keep up the good work he is a lucky man to have you..
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Posted 20 Nov 2018 at 17:08
Kentish, you are a star, indeed. I can't help thinking that your husband is trapped in vicious circles. Pain killing drugs that cause constipation, anti-nausea tablets ditto, inactivity ditto. The so!ution has to be a much increased fluid intake, for which the sodium supplement seems to be the key. I certainly hope it brings relief and progress.

Good Luck

AC

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Posted 20 Nov 2018 at 18:21
Desmopressin acetate:

Had a bit of a panic when I got home from the chemist and read the leaflet.

"Do Not Take if....you have low sodium....are suffering from SIADH "

I rang the onco and left a message with his secretary. Came back to me really quickly, that applies if you are taking it for bedwetting...

So, starting this evening, no more restricted fluids, hopefully this will help flush his bladder of clots, these are agonisingly painful to pass. It must be, he said "I wish they'd chop it off! " I don't think many men would genuinely wish that!

Bath and shave achieved...steak again for dinner, the kids can't believe it...just going to book those cinema tickets.xx

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Posted 21 Nov 2018 at 16:25
I hope you both enjoy the steak tonight and the cinema on Friday.

Here’s hoping the increased fluid intake will improve things.

User
Posted 21 Nov 2018 at 21:41
Increase in fluid means an increase in leaking but he's not bothered about it. Peeing like a horse!

Managed to get up with the children this morning (more than I did ) and see them off to school. Then he made a coffee and brought it up to me in bed, stayed up all day. Nurse came and took blood, podiatrist came and did his feet...bleurrgh.

Actually she said other than a funky toenail and dryskin they were fine, I'm still not doing it :)

Had a wash this evening and has now retired to bed.

In amongst this we talked about funeral songs and the children's 16th and 18th birthdays next year...he wants to talk about it, decide and then never discuss it again. I agreed that was a very good idea. We're going to write it in his My Wishes book (the funeral plan, not the birthday ideas....) and then put it away. I like his approach of tackle it head on and then get on with the everyday, nothing more to discuss.

My workplace have given me unpaid leave until after Christmas, to be discussed again in January.

His workplace are still paying him full pay, his sicknote finishes at Christmas and he will send in another one. I spoke to them recently and they asked how he was and reassured me they would continue to pay him as long as they could. They are awesome. He must have been very highly thought of.

A side thought:

Does anyone else read some of the words and see:

Mucinous = Mutinous

Haemoglobin = Haemagoblin

Prostate = Prostrate

Etc

Or am I having a mini moment, using humour to deflect..!

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Posted 23 Nov 2018 at 22:28
Positives:

Sodium is 124 still and Hb has risen to 100.

Negatives: raised white cell count, no sign of an infection at the moment though, eg temperature, cough, red skin.

Nausea and vomiting though, I called the doctors for the results this morning and they said the doctor would do a home visit to see if he had an infection. Coincidentally, oh had been sick twice today and I wanted a doctor to come and see him anyway.

Doctor couldn't pinpoint an infection but wrote a prescription for prochlorperazine to try as an anti nausea drug.

Oh is really miserable, he's slept a lot of the day and feels sick when he is awake :(

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Posted 24 Nov 2018 at 19:34
Crisis/anticipatory medications:

Oh still being sick at 11pm and agreed calling the community nurses would be a good idea. They came within the hour and gave him an injection for the vomiting. He's managed to keep the oral medication down today but has slept for most of it. No other meds taken at all as he just felt to rubbish to try.

This is tough :(

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Posted 24 Nov 2018 at 23:16

Hi,

I just want to send you and your husband a massive hug xxxx

Broken crayons still colour ❣️

User
Posted 24 Nov 2018 at 23:41
Nature kicks in to produce natural pain relief and sleeping more is part of that. Are you managing to get any rest?
"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards." Soren Kierkegaard

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Posted 25 Nov 2018 at 00:46

Thank you Ladies,  I feel if I have a real life hug I won't be able to keep it together for the children. I'm waiting for our son to get in from his part time job (restaurant ), can't go to sleep until I hear the key in the door.

I'm not really doing much but it's not restful...I can't concentrate on the TV or a book and I don't want to go out, I want to stay near oh. I've woken him up twice since lunch to get him to go for a wee and to take the metoclopromide.  At least that's staying down and he's stopped being sick.

Family have popped in and chatted to the kids and me. But even conversation is hard to concentrate on. It's a horrible feeling of knowing I must still function for the children but actually I just want everyone to leave us alone.

Xx

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Posted 25 Nov 2018 at 02:38

Read this poem (half way down the page, dated 29th November) from Julie -
https://community.prostatecanceruk.org/posts/t9751-Advanced-prostat-cancer-part-2/page2

 

Julie had the comfort blanket for a long time but was always generous in sharing it with others.

Anything normal is going to be a huge effort at the minute; it is a great shame that the moderators block any swear words on this forum because sometimes, a good expletive helps. I used to go out for a run and scream once I got round the corner.

"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards." Soren Kierkegaard

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Posted 25 Nov 2018 at 11:19

Thank you Lynn, I love the humour and pathos. I've often said to my counsellor that I want to press pause on life, just for a little while so we can take a deep breath and rest for a moment from the journey.

I am a very sweary person, it takes a lot of restraint not to fill my posts with ******. According to the  kids, "Mummy has a potty mouth" I would very much like something to punch, or smash or burn....perhaps I'll chop logs and light the fire, that's acceptable arson and violent behaviour ;)

This current little detour appears to have come to and end!  After many, many trips for a number 2 since yesterday, oh announces his morning that he thinks he might get up in a while and watch TV...he has not had any of his medications since Thursday evening, Abiraterone,  prednisolone, desmopressin,  morphine, omeprozole. He took one paracetamol yesterday because he had a headache and has managed to keep down 4 doses of metoclopromide.

He has also drunk 6 small cartons of apple juice over the course of yesterday and last night.

I'm wondering if this was a bad reaction to the desmopressin, coupled with a really bad bout of constipation?

Oh has decided not to take any of his meds until Tuesday and then he's going to go back to restricted fluids for a few days before trying the desmopressin again.

His only pain is in his penis when he goes for a poo, no idea why but it goes away once his lower bowel has emptied. He's not planning on taking the morphine unless it's absolutely  necessary, he hates being constipated.

Right then, off to do something productive,  probably, when I've had another coffee. Xx

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Posted 26 Nov 2018 at 00:15
Well he didn't quite manage to get up but today was a better day. Still keeping the metoclopromide down and was tempted by the smell of frying bacon into eating a crispy rasher. Then a kids cheese pizza and later in the evening a sausage.

I'm under no illusion this is a little hiatus, he's just slept for almost the whole day and when awake he can't manage a conversation longer than 5 minutes.

But he managed to ask our son about an apprenticeship he's been offered and a new part time job he starts this week.

Xx

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Posted 26 Nov 2018 at 23:42
And today he's up :) twice !

When he got up this morning he said he thought he'd got another uti, off I went to gp with a sample and they called later to say yes he has and to collect a prescription for trimethropin.

Still off his meds and only had 2 metoclopromide today.

Interest in food today, cooking kids tea and it's like the bistro kid from upstairs...."that smells nice!"

I'm so glad he's stopped feeling sick.

Tomorrow's plan: get washed.

A home hairdresser is coming to give him a trim on Friday, and we are having a new mattress delivered. You know you're old when this makes your heart flutter😁. It's the posh one that Premier Inn use, we stayed in one earlier in the year and it was like being hugged!

Oh is looking forward to it too, 3 solid days in bed and he's got a sore hip from laying on his side all the time.

Ugh, ,I went to bed early (8pm) because I'm shattered, slept until 11pm and now I can't get back to sleep :(

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Posted 26 Nov 2018 at 23:51
You can buy the mattresses that premier inn use????
"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards." Soren Kierkegaard

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Posted 27 Nov 2018 at 00:13

I know Lynn, I googled it just for jokes after we'd stayed there...then in our typical way we ummed and aaahed over whether to splash out. Then a few weeks ago on a particularly s**t day I ordered one.

Our motto for frivolous purchases is:

"Chuck it in the f**k it bucket"

We are cautious spenders by nature so its a little nerve wracking when I press the "complete" button on large amounts of money. I usually have to eat some chocolate or drink wine to settle my nerves😄

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Posted 27 Nov 2018 at 00:57
You see, this is the problem - I am tee total so I just spend the money without any kind of props needed.

Having said that, my family are very proud of me for giving up smoking last February so I haven't the heart to tell them that I started again :-/

Seriously, next time he has a bad phase, make sure that the nurses come out to visit - the last thing he needs is bed sores. When I kidnapped mum from the hospice, Social Services had to bring a proper medical bed to the house with all the lifting & tilting facilities so that she didn't get sore - it is a statutory responsibility in terminal care cases, I think?

"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards." Soren Kierkegaard

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Posted 27 Nov 2018 at 09:55

I will do that.

Already managed a bath this morning :) just now is eating a slice of jam on toast. Hasn't taken metoclopromide since yesterday lunch time but has taken an omeprozole this morning as the burping/indigestion is horrible.

I've been thinking about the bed, oh has said he wants to go to the hospice for end of life care but he may well be bed bound before that happens. I think we could fit a bed in our living room otherwise it'll just be an additional pressure pad put on our own bed.

At what point is it decided that the hospice is the place to be and who decides?

I gave up smoking 11 years ago when I lost my dad to lung cancer and his specialist told me that I would very likely develop it myself if I carried on. My brother on the other hand has stopped and started over and over again. I still get a whiff now and again and think I really want that "aaah" moment that came with lighting up! 

I don't drink heavily but I wish I could leave the chocolate alone😈

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Posted 27 Nov 2018 at 11:05

Originally Posted by: Online Community Member
You can buy the mattresses that premier inn use????

By Appointment to Her Majesty no less.  The bed outlets in Redbrick in Batley used to sell them at eye watering prices - £5,000+ - but they were very nice to lay on.  The one we slept on at Premier Inn a month ago must have been well road tested as it was a bit lumpy.......fortunately no stains though..... 

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Posted 27 Nov 2018 at 13:18

£565 for a king-size Hypnos mattress only. Mine with the new map of Tasmania on it might need replacing, but I could always turn it round to Her Loveliness’s side and blame her.

Or turn it upside down and pretend nothing ever happened!

Cheers, John

Edited by member 27 Nov 2018 at 14:12  | Reason: Not specified

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Posted 27 Nov 2018 at 15:28

Haha you two, "map of Tasmania", I've arranged for the old one to be taken away when they bring the new (extra cost), I'm too embarrassed by the state of it to leave it outside for the council to take away....the shame and all the neighbours will see!!

I have also purchased a waterproof mattress protector to keep it nice...I can't believe how excited I am about it 😄

 

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Posted 05 Dec 2018 at 17:19

Update: Urology appointment today for follow up from TURP. Results say he has 5+5 acinar adenocarcinoma, I asked if they had found small cell, the urologist looked at the report and said there was no mention of it.(he didn't do the op)
So, yay, it's very aggressive but it's not small cell.

Oh is enthused by this news, he's felt so sh*t he thought he was literally dying.
Urologist said the pain on urinating and emptying his bowels should improve with time as the surgeon spent 60 mins burning tissue and this is a lot.

A little bit of me feels that this isn't right but can prostate cancer be this aggressive without being small cell?

Urologist didn't have anything else to say other than the cancer had grown into the bladder and the report said the kidneys were difficult to see.

Edit: 

OH has eaten more these past 3 days and we made it out to homebase to buy a Christmas tree.  Each day is just a little better than the last. Tomorrow we are wrapping presents. I am able to enjoy the little things we do together but I am struggling with the impending sense of doom I've been feeling since summer.  I am relieved that they didn't find small cell but I am still worried, I hope that makes sense.

 

Edited by member 05 Dec 2018 at 18:05  | Reason: Added comment

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Posted 05 Dec 2018 at 19:27

I can't help with your technical questions, so sorry about that.  The rest of your post is positive though and it seems that OH is improving each day, albeit slowly but in the right direction.  That's going to help for the upcoming holiday, I'm sure.

I'd love to see his face when he unwraps the mattress protector on Xmas Day......

Stay strong! 

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Posted 05 Dec 2018 at 21:41

Mr Angry,

I've bashed out an email to the oncologist with a list of questions that I don't feel could be answered by the urologist, so hopefully some technical answers from there.

Yes, each day is a little better, I didn't like to tempt fate by rejoicing the fact we'd been to homebase and then be dealt another dose of something nasty.  

The mattress is Awesome,  it does nothing to encourage me out of bed in the morning. The mattress protector is already on, it's nothing like the crinkly plastic of my childhood😂. 

We would normally spend Christmas with family (25 of us) in Sussex but oh doesn't want to travel, he's still passing clots and the urologist doesn't think this will change. If he goes into retention again he wants to be at home. So we are spending Christmas at home, I'm so lucky to have such a kind family, they've offered to come to us with food at a moments notice if oh feels well enough. Or they will just visit, whatever oh wants to do.

Thanks for the support 😊

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Posted 05 Dec 2018 at 22:22
Even within adenocarcinoma, there are tigers and pussycats. Much of the research spend currently is on a) trying to work out why some are tigers while others are pussycats and b) trying to find a way to identify which is which.

Christmas and the mattress both sound lovely. An advert flashed up on my FB account today or the John Lewis top-of-the-range mattress which is priced at a smooth £18,000 !

"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards." Soren Kierkegaard

 
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