I just wanted to come back one more time to say thank you. Thank you for the support you all gave me, the advice and the virtual hugs. Thank you for the condolences you all offered. I read every one but just couldn't manage to write anything back. I have logged on a few times but have been unable to focus my mind enough to write anything.
My heart goes out to those struggling and also the families of others who are at peace now.
It has been and continues to be a struggle to cope with the lingering anxiety, any siren raises my heart rate and the fear sets in. I am taking steps to work on this and the awful merry-go-round of "what if's" that keep me awake at night. The children were not exposed to the trauma in the same way and although there are moments of deep sadness, they appear to be "just getting on with it", and I am relieved.
The Boy sketched his way through the exams, just about making it to the last one and fully expecting to have failed. He probably hasn't but it doesn't matter, his apprenticeship is not grade dependant (thank goodness). He has just returned from a week away in Majorca with his young lady and has had a wonderful time.
The Daughter organised a fundraiser through school for the Hospice and they raised nearly £5000, she's taken her end of year exams and passed everything with an acceptable grade, pretty impressive considering how much time she had off over the last 6 months.
Like I say, "just getting on with it".
I am just getting on with trying to put myself back together physically and mentally, emotionally will just run its own course.
Again, I am very grateful for the people on here who consistently offer their support, even if its only an acknowledgment that you are not alone. I sincerely wish you all the very best for the future, love and hugs to you all.xx