I thought I’d leave this thread quiet for a while out of respect for Teacups and H. Still thinking of you Teacups, Thank you for thinking of us.xx
N’s upward swing lasted a few days, results back today (26/3/19) show a severe infection, probably uti, and very poor renal function, probably the demeclocycline. So back on co-amoxiclav and stopped taking the demeclocycline. N also chose to stop the enza , he was having trouble taking them and felt it wasn’t really going to help. Who knows? So his renal function is expected to improve and they are hoping to get on top of the infection. However, N was asked if he would want to have intravenous antibiotics and Iv fluid if the oral antibiotics didn’t work. N has chosen to not go back to hospital, of course he may change his mind but at least I know what he wants at this moment in time.
The plan is for N to come home again, I don’t know how many times “this is not a long term facility” has been said but it’s clear they think he has long enough to be able to come home. I cannot put into words how distressing this is. I’ve talked to the kids and explained that I will do the best I can. But this feels like a hopeless situation.
N wants to come home and he can’t stay at the hospice, there are nursing homes locally but some of the hospice patients have been in them and had to come back to the hospice because the care home couldn’t cater for their medical needs. This does not inspire confidence and N asked me not to put him in a home.
I have asked for night care to be added to our package and when this is confirmed he’ll come home.
28/03/19: N has been about the same for a couple.of days, taking the antibiotics and just getting on with it really. He’s very weak and a bit confused at times but on the whole he just sleeps and chats a bit when he wakes up. I know that the sodium will be falling and me and the kids are making the most of lucidity while he has it.
30/3/19: N is ok but very tired, finding the energy to drink his coffee is an effort and he just wants to sleep.
31/03/19: A little better than yesterday but much the same, the kids came up and we watched a bit of a film for an hour together, they are coping as well as can be expected. Son finding it hard to concentrate on his A levels so I have asked to talk to school to see what they can do to help him through these last few weeks. He flatly refused to talk to anyone at the hospice again but was open with me that he is struggling. I asked a social worker for guidance on what to say, I just don’t know what to do for the best, I certainly don’t want to say the wrong thing and make it worse!
01/04/19: Things are much the same. A little more sleepy.
02/04/19: Just a bit more slurred than the day before. Set to come home Thursday, he’s looking forward to it. It feels me with dread, of course I want him to be at home and for it to be the same as the last few days but the anxiety I feel over losing the safety net of the doctors and nurses is almost overwhelming.
03/04/19: Much more slurred than earlier in the week, a bit more confused and started talking to himself and staring into the distance again. Finishes antibiotics today so probably not infection, probably sodium.
Son has broken up with his girlfriend of a year, He said he’s been unhappy for a while but we’ve had such a shitty few months that there was never a good time to break up.
And to top off the day, no night care...got to keep a diary to prove he needs it. Other options presented were, pay for it privately, which I’m willing to do but how will I know if they’re nice or not, got to have faith and I’m sadly lacking in that at the moment. I asked about Marie Curie referral and the answer was that they have never been allocated to our area which is probably down to funding. Or ask friends and family to rotate care, poor Nigel, the only way I can see that working is to be on night duty myself and ask friends and family to sit during the day when there are at least carers to come out. Was told, you have carers 4 times a day, the morning one can sort out anything that’s happened in the night!! Sit in mess from possibly 11pm (the latest the carers come) until anytime between 7 am and 11am (the 4 hour morning time slot )? What planet do these people live on!