It is so good to have your wise words back on this community Bazza.
Bri, I know when I was told of my recurrence I nearly passed out as fear gripped me. My oncologist has told me very clearly that my recurrence is aggressive and likely to cut my life short, he won't commit to numbers other than to say you could have years not months but no-one can tell.
It was certainly far worse hearing about the recurrence than my initial diagnosis. I had been through the radical prostatectomy and all that entails but the b***ard never really left.
The oncologists are dealing with this on a daily basis but I also do wish they would try to imagine what it must feel like for us. (I'm not saying they are completely without empathy but some of the specialist nurses I have met are)
One CNS told me I was panicking (I wasn't) and that there was plenty of time to deal with things (there wasn't).
My GP was even worse until I put him right, information wise.
Thank goodness for the specialist nurses here on PCUK and for our fellow travellers and their nuggets of wisdom.
Wishing you all the best,