Poor John had a terrible night, he’s been very sick, so I called the district nurses this morning and they’ve come and put a cannula in his arm and given him anti sickness drugs through that. I’ve had to call them again to administer morphine as he can’t take it by mouth right now. They are so good and kind, I can’t thank them enough for their help. I tried to get John on a bedpan but the agony was dreadful, his pelvis is where the worst of it all has been. I think they will start a syringe driver beforehand many days have passed.
I see utter weakness in him and it’s pretty bloody awful if you’ll forgive my words. I asked him if he wanted to go to the hospice but he said he wanted to stay here so that’s where he will stay, I’m very glad.
love to you all, please don’t feel the need to respond, I know how hard it is to say the right words. I know that people on here think of us and that’s enough.
love Devonmaid xxxx