Hi Joe,
I am a couple of months ahead of you having had my op in May 22. I too had nerve sparing. 80%, 3 of the 5 on my right hand side and all 5 on my left. So partial sparing. For the first year, I had pretty much nothing compared to pre op. Which when i thought back to, left me absolutely gutted and stripped of my masculinity. Horrendous mental stuff.
It improved week by week, but not at the speed I'd hoped and anticipated for. Going into year 3 I noticed ever so slight improvement that seemed to have hit a point that I would just have to embrace and accept as my new normal.
Non sum qualis eram.
However.
So at the beginning of last week I finally got round to doing my self assesment tax return. Naturally its not something to be happy or excited about. Anyway, it turns out I owe Hector 4 grand more than I had anticipated. Heartbreaking stuff. properly p****d me off. So it was at this excat moment, around half past 1 in the afternoon, that I decided was as good a time as any to take myself to the bathroom and knock a dry one out with this once magnificent appendage. Now, there will probably be women reading this thinking, What the actual f... , after filing a tax return?...I know. And they would be right to ask that. Im not proud. However Im almost certain there will be an equal amount of men thinking... after filing a tax return? Sounds as good a time as any. Its just the way we are programmed. Anyway, what happened next was scarcely believable. For the first time since my op I had a natural erection that was pretty close to my pre op days. I was shocked and obviously excited at the same time. The fear was it might just be a one off , maybe because I was on my own and my good lady wont get to share this wee moment with me ,but no, Ive had the same each day for 12 days now. I seem to have just rapidly turned another corner with this.
As usual with me I have probably been too candid. I happily paid Hector his extra 4K. Im over the moon. However bloods are to be taken on Monday morning and it might all fall to s***. Cant do much about that.
Heres hoping you too suddenly turn a corner Joe. Good luck ma man.
Jamie.