Today is the First Day of the Rest of my Life

Hi Steve,

Lets hope that you hear some news soon on the Trop test, ECG are not really the best way to determine what is going on as they only give a yay or nay for that moment in time.  Trevor has had several "normal " ECG readings with very abnormal Trop test results.

The injection in your tummy is a blood thinner so I am thinking maybe another blockage somewhere as the pain eased when this was given.

Do you have a GTN spray ? this really helps with Angina pain as it widens the arteries much as an inhaler works in Asthmatics. 

This can't be helping with your stress levels. We are all rooting for you.

BFN

Julie X

You are not wasting anyone's time Steve, that is what they are there for and clearly there is a problem . Your Trop tests are not in normal range . I hope that you get some answers today. My friend has just had the new CT Angiogram done it is apparently the way forward and much less invasive than the old way but guess what she has too wait two weeks for the results , apparently it takes that long for the secretary to type the letter.http://community.prostatecanceruk.org/editors/tiny_mce/plugins/emoticons/img/smiley-yell.gif

Stay strong, it will get sorted.

BFN

Julie X

Macmillan offer grants which can help through tough times. Also have you heard of PIP, there are special rules for terminally I'll people and it is not means tested.

Macmillan nurses are great at helping people get what they are entitled to. If you want any further info let me know.

As others have said talk to your doctor there are things out there to help and we all need that sometimes.

Love to you xx

Ooo-er! Not that we think you are terminally ill, Steve! You will get better and get back to work eventually so perhaps organisations like BHF have similar grants for people who just need a helping hand? 

Try to get some sleep - more sleeping time, less time to think and get stressed x 

Edited by member 15 Mar 2015 at 20:22  | Reason: Not specified

Not planning to go just yet even though my rushed post when arriving at hospital yesterday may have suggested otherwise. A very kind post by Joy anyway.

It's difficult to keep track of people's diagnosis sometimes, especially when mine seems to change weekly. If it was written as a soap opera script it would probably be discounted as being too unlikely.

Anyway, thanks to you and everyone here, I'm feeling a bit more positive now, if I find out solutions to my heart problems tomorrow.

Steve x

best place to be at this time.

I read you had taken your spray 5 times if you have to take a third its 999

Edited by member 18 Apr 2015 at 09:35  | Reason: Not specified

A lovely heartfelt piece of writing Steve. You talked about your wife at Newark and it feels as if that issue remains alive. Yet sometimes you have to be selfish and sort yourself out first. If your wife cannot give you the support you need seek it elsewhere so you can eventually be strong for her too. You feel zapped of energy and you are not used to the inactivity. It would help to talk this through and seeking professional help is a starting point. Although we can listen and this site is supportive sometimes that is not enough to get on top of some of the feelings the events of the last nine months have generated for you.

Hoping to hear better news of your heart problems this week and that you have sought some help. You will get there eventually but now is not the time to go inward and try and do it yourself, take your problems to someone who can help.

Hi Steve

I think the above statement sum it all up, you have now taken your first step into putting this downward spiral in reverse and the only way is up mate.So let the Specialists do their job, and allow yourself time to concentrate on those important things you have identified.

All the best

Roy

Edited by member 16 Mar 2015 at 12:32  | Reason: Not specified

good afternoon, I hope you have had a better start to this week.

I like your last post it shows that you are starting to put the pieces together and as Roy highlighted your closing statement encourages me to think that you are on the right track.

I think you are ready to hear somethings from me. I am not very good at saying things in a conversation or face to face with a person so I use writing as my means of getting my feelings out there.

I am sure you will have done the same with photography.

I have rather unkowingly struggled just recently not so much from grief but from issues that go back a very long way. I could not see this but I was encouraged by a really good friend who could see it to find someone that I could talk to, I decided to give that a try and have sarted talking with a pastoral care specialist at work. I know her well enough to feel comfortable but not so well that I feel intimidated or embarrassed telling her very personal things. She now knows that I write when I am troubled so she has encouraged me to share some of my recent writing with her. Maybe you could try something similar you clearly enjoy writing and it is a great way to "spill" you don't have to share what you write but if you need to you can.

I admit I have had times recently when I began to wonder how you as one person could have so many things going wrong and I am so sorry that I thought that way. I just want you to know that I cannot help you in any other way than to be here for you and to let you know the depression you have is by no means unique or just yours.You are not alone.

xx

Mo