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Enzalutamide causing pain??

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Posted 15 Jul 2015 at 22:17
Hi, I was hoping to get some advice.

My dad was diagnosed about 2 years ago with prostate cancer that had also gone on to his hip. He has had hormone treatment with 3 monthly injections which were doing ok. In April he was told his psa leek was going up so my dad had a months worth of radiotherapy. His psa level was still raising so he then started on the Enzalutamide about two weeks ago. He seams to be going down hill quite quickly over the last 4 weeks and was admitted in to hospital yesterday as he was in so much pain. He's had to have a blood transfusion yesterday and today they have taken him off the Enzalutamide. Why would they have taken him off this and what other options does he have?? He doesn't seam well at all and is on a high dose of morphine and is struggling to walk.

Please help as I'm feeling pretty desperate to know some answers.

Thank you

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Posted 23 Jul 2015 at 20:37
Mo thank you so much again, you have no idea how much of a help you are to me right now. Everything we need to know or not sure about I only have to ask you and you have the answer.

I think I need to just focus on each day at a time for now xx

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Posted 23 Jul 2015 at 22:36

Hi Indigo.

I am so glad that Mo has come along and helped you , she is pretty FAB we call each other SS , Soul Sisters (sometimes we make such strong friends on here that go way beyond the call of duty).

I just wanted you to know that many people read posts but don't always reply , it is sometimes very difficult for those (not in the met camp) to reply and offer support so as a fellow met camp person . I understand what you are going through. Trevor has daughters and in the not too distant future we will be where you are know. Yes what a roller coaster but what a lovely daughter you are .  I am so glad that you found this site and I so hope that we can be a support when you need us.

BFN

Julie X

NEVER LAUGH AT A LIVE DRAGON
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Posted 06 Aug 2015 at 11:08
Hi all,

Thought I would update you on my dad.

my dad is still in hospital. They just can't get on top of his pain relief. During the night he in a lot of pain but they they can't give him too much as it makes him confused and delirious. I think they have come to the decision now that there isn't much more they can do pain relief wise. So may send him home. He is still taking the enzalutamide Which I don't know yet what that doing. It's been a very hard few weeks and still not got much further on with things.

They have also suggested he has a Stint in the Macmillan unit but he really doesn't want to. I honestly think that would probably finish him off. I do worry that it is going to be very hard for my mum having dad at home but it is there wishes and I will respect what they want xx

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Posted 16 Jul 2015 at 00:34

Hi Indigo 1,

I can't really answer your question but I just wanted to say hi and bump your thread back up to the top where it will be seen by more people. I would think the reasoning for taking Dad of the Enzalutamide is if it does not seem to be working and the pain is increasing then there wouldn't be much point in continuing. I know this probably isn't what you want to hear. Have you been in touch with the Hospice nurses they are very good at getting pain control sorted. It maybe worth having a chat with your Dads Consultant at the hospital. I am hoping that Mo (Edamo) will see your post she is pretty good with advice.

Take care

BFN

Julie X

NEVER LAUGH AT A LIVE DRAGON
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Posted 16 Jul 2015 at 06:18
Thank you.

It's so awful to see him, he's on strong morphine bug that is making him hallucinate quite badly and his body is in distress. just not sure what is going on with him

Thank you

User
Posted 16 Jul 2015 at 08:00

Hello Indigo, another member just saying hello and welcome.

I'm sure that somebody will be along with advice on enzalutamide and hat is happening with your dad.

Sorry I don't have any experience of the drug so cannot help but e do have many members with knowledge of it

We can't control the winds - but we can adjust our sails
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Posted 16 Jul 2015 at 09:17
Thank you
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Posted 16 Jul 2015 at 10:40
Indigo

I am glad your post was bumped as I had missed it, they often take a day to get through the moderator who has to check every new conversation to try and prevent any inapropriate ones.

Your Dad does sound to be quite poorly and the level of pain he is suffering is not good, neither is the high dose of morphine if it is making him hallucinate.

Regrettably there sometimes comes a time when a Man becomes totally resistant to hormone treatments like the 3 monthly injections, tablets like casodex (biculatmide) etc.

Your dad's team may have opted for enzalutamide as it is a much newer type of treatment, he may have been taken off it just temporarily as he is so ill, but more likely (and this is the toughest part) because it is not working for him either.

His pain and poor mobility are probably due to the cancer being quite active and putting out much higher levels of PSA, he may also be having some problems with calcium levels. If he has had a blood transfusion this will be because he has readings of some cell types that are abnormal, like Haemaglobin, red cells or white cells, the transfusion should boost those and improve general well being for a while. They can do these fairy regularly if they help. Has he had any calcium treatments or bone strengthening infusions like Denusomab or Zometa?

You have not said what your Dad's PSA level is now and what it has been previously, this information might be useful to anyone responding to you. Also has your Dad had any chemotherapy at all or has this been mentioned as an option? A combination of age and general strength and well being would impact on the possibility of this.

As for the pain management, some people really do not tolerate morphine or other opiates taken as tablets or even as infusions/injections although they can manage the skin patch varietals like fentanyl which have far fewer side effects. There are so many different pain medications for ll different types of pain (nerve pain, bone pain, muscle pain etc) also they can be given in combinations and in so many different ways that Macmillan and other specialist oncology nurses, hospices and even some medical practices and hospitals have specialists who deal in this.

If you are able to speak to your Dad's GP or the doctors in the hospital ask if your Dad can be referred to the Macmillan pain management team, or your local hospice. The constant pain will not be helping your Dad to deal with things and will have a very significant impact on his quality of life (often referred to as QOL)

You mentioned he had Radiotherapy (RT) was this in his hip to try and reduce any boney mestatases (mets) there? If your Dad has had a recent MRI or CT scan have they shown any spinal mets as these can also cause significant pain and mobility issues as well as general weakness in places like the legs, arms and neck.

I know this all sounds like so much informtion and so many questions but the more we know the more we can try and guide you to the right place and people to get the professional help you need for your Dad.

One thing I would add is that people often balk at the word hospice as they think that is where people go to die. That is not at all true these days, I work in a hospice as a volunteer and we have people who come and go for many different reasons the most common of which are pain management and poor appetite.

If you need someone to chat with off the forum you can always send me a private message through here.

Thankyou for caring so much about your Dad to join us here, having your support will mean so much to him.

Best wishes

xx

Mo

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Posted 16 Jul 2015 at 10:50
Thank you so much for your reply. My dad is my world and it's breaking my heart to see him so poorly.

I will try and find out more info today as we didn't seam to get any answers yesterday. He was in a really bad way yesterday, his body was very agitated and he was tryi to grab things that wasn't there. Very painful to watch.

He is 73 years old and has always been very active for his age up until the cancer. Even then to start with he still worked. It's just this last month that he has gone down hill. He's not stable in his legs at all and needs a wheel chair to get to places. Even to weak to wash his own hair.

I'm scared that I'm losing him as all the signs are there but nobody has told us that we are.

Chemo has never been mentioned, the consultant was going to put him in docataxel but changed his mind to put him on the Enz instead.

So I'm at a complete loss x

Really appreciate any thoughts xx

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Posted 16 Jul 2015 at 14:45
Hi again Indigo

I know just how upsetting this is for you, the weakness and sudden deterioration can be very distressing when it is happening to someone you love dearly. You have not mentioned if you are on your own with your dad, if you are it makes it even harder.

The drugs he has been taking for 2 years can weaken muscle and cause problems with mobility, using a wheelchair or walking sticks/frame is a really sensible thing to do as the last thing you want is for your dad to havea a fall. PCa makes men very vulnerable indeed to fractures and a condition called spinal cord compression or SCC. This is why I asked about the scans and if your dad has mets anywhere other than his hip.

The morphine and other pain killers or any type of infection can also cause all sorts of co-ordination and mbility issues so do not despair just yet. The hospital should be checking all these things while he is there. 73 is not old at all and if your dad has been doing well for 2 years up to now on just HT then this could be just a transition from relatively passive cancer to something a little more active.

Docetaxel is one of the common chemotherapy treatments so if Dad's oncologist considered this then that is a positve thing, the fact he chose enzaltamide instead was probably to give a new type of less debiitating treatment a chance first.

The treatments he has had so far are palliative in other words to make things more tolerable and to prolong life as long as possible, as from what you have told us it sounds like your dad has what is called advanced PCa which cannot be cured or put into a state of long term remission but it can sometimes be managed.

Again do not despair just yet, we have had and still do have men on this forum around the same age as your dad who have lived with this level of PCa for quite a few years. Much depends on the cancer and how it behaves.

If you manage to get the consultant oncologist or one of the hopital doctors or Macmillan nurses to have a chat with your Dad with you there,you may get them to tell you a bit more about his current issues and what treatments they are going to try including the possibility of chemo.

What you need now more than anything is some answers to questions and a good honest discussion with the medical team so that you can know and understand just what you are going to be supporting your dad through.

I will be thinking of you

best wishes

xx

Mo

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Posted 16 Jul 2015 at 14:55

Hi Indigo --

We found and restored your original post from a few days ago. It's here, if you want to read the responses: http://community.prostatecanceruk.org/posts/t10905-Please-help#post132762

I've locked it so that all responses will be posted here instead of split between the old and new conversation.

Best wishes,

Sadie

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Posted 16 Jul 2015 at 15:41
Thank you so much for taking your time to reply back to me. I have spike to the nurse who has had quite a bit to say. It sounds like it has spread further in to his bones and possibly in to his spine. They are doing an MRI scan either today or tomorrow to find out.

He is sleeping a lot now which I guess is kind of a good thing as whilst he's asleep he's not in pain.

I hate to ask but really need to know. Can he die from this or would it need to spread to organs first??

I really feel like we are losing him but no one has said we are

Thanks x

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Posted 16 Jul 2015 at 20:59
Oh Indigo

my heart really goes out to you, your Dad does sound very poorly but as I said before do not despair yet. The MRI scan will show just where the cancer is spreading to. Once you have that information you will get a much clearer idea of what lies ahead and the options your Dad might have.

Losing all that weight is common in cancer and for those in a lot of pain but it can be gained back if the cancer is slowed down enough by treatment and the pain is dealt with.

It is a common misconception that men do not die of prostate cancer we often hear people say that or that it is a good cancer to get or an old man's disease. All of these are rubbish and very misleading.

Many old men do get PCa and many have no idea they have it, in fact it is quite common for a man to die of something else but PCa is identified as being present but not the cause of death. No cancer is ever a good cancer to get so I personally hate that one. Regrettably men do die of PCa as my husband Mick did and many others before and since him. Thankfully the numbers are reltaively low in comparison to those who have the disease and live with it for many many years.

Those that have an advanced and spreading cancer that is not responding to any treatments are the ones more likely to die of it but that can be anything from months to several even many years later.

The honest answer to your question is yes, men can and do die of prostate cancer, so you need to know that is a possibility. It would be cruel and unfair to tell you otherwise. However until the hospital have done all their tests and reached a conclusion they, and for that matter nobody else, can tell you what is going to happen or when that might be.

So for now, hard as it may seem, you have to be as strong as you can to support your Dad and your Mum. I have seen the posts that went missing from earlier so I know you think your Mum is not necessarily dealing with things well, but everyone deals with this how they can, Whatever you think or feel, your Mum also needs you to help her through this and whatever the future might bring. Your Dad of course needs you both, united in your support for him.

My thoughts are with you and I am sending you the biggest virtual hug I can

xx

Mo

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Posted 16 Jul 2015 at 22:25

Indigo,

My heart also goes out to you and I wish that I could offer a line of hope, Dad does sound as if he is very poorly this disease is so different for everyone and some get years and others are not so lucky. One thing I will say is you sound like a lovely and caring daughter.  Our path is not so very different and we are just a little bit behind you on the rocky road. I am so glad that Mo (Edamo ) has picked up on your thread . She has given some very good advice on pain relief and hospice care. Please speak to Dad's Oncology team this includes any Drs that are involved with Dad's care they will be able to guide and give you the facts on your Dad's illness.

When you get all of the new scans and bloods I am sure the team looking after Dad will be able to help you understand what is happening.

BFN

Julie X

NEVER LAUGH AT A LIVE DRAGON
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Posted 16 Jul 2015 at 22:28
Thank you all so much for taking your time to reply back to me.

My mum had told me tonight that she is bringing my dad home to die. He is so so poorly, not really awake anymore. When he is awake he's in a lot of pain.

I am hurting so much to see my dad go through this. He is my absolute world.

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Posted 17 Jul 2015 at 08:44

Indigo, when the people we love to much that it hurts are very poorly and have to leave us the pain can be unbearable at first.

Both you and your mum will have a painful and difficult time in the days ahead.

If dad is already weak and not really awake any more is home the best place for him and for you and mum come to that. If he is in hospital or in a hospice there are people there to try and alleviate that pain.

Mo has given such good advice and from personal experience so I cannot add anything else worthwhile, except to say that over the past 3 years I have had to relatives with terminal cancer and they ended up in hospices and the care and love that is extended to patients on their final journey cannot be bettered.

Keep strong for your mum. You say your dad is your world. Well, do him proud by supporting your mum and taking his place in helping her through the dark days ahead.

I'm thinking of you all, it's a tough road but you'll walk it well.

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Posted 17 Jul 2015 at 08:54

We've been watching your post for 3 days with tears in our eyes Indigo , but just not knowing what to say . Our thoughts are genuinely with you and we hope you and your mum can find the strength you need to get through this .
Wishes Chris and El

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Posted 17 Jul 2015 at 09:19
Thank you for replying. I appreciate the support from you all on here. I feel like I can ask the questions on here that I can't ask anywhere else x
User
Posted 17 Jul 2015 at 09:22
Thank you so much.

Everyone on here has been amazing, although I have never spoken to any of you before, everyone's words have helped me so much. I've been able to ask things in here that I am too scared to ask out loud x

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Posted 17 Jul 2015 at 09:33
Hi Mo,

I'm sorry I have just realised that j didn't reply back to you yesterday. Thank you so much for being honest although I think I knew that answer anyway. I have always heard you can't die from prostate cancer and I think that is what is making this so hard to handle as its such a shock to see dad so poorly.

We do have a meeting today with dads Dr and the palative care team so hopefully ( I think it's a good thing ) that we might get some answers today.

For the first time last night, my mum broke down and admitted that she thinks we are losing him. She said she wants to arrange for him to go home and get the help and care that we need for dad to be comfortable at home.

I never knew it was humanly possible to hurt so much

Everybody's support on here is just amazing and I am so very grateful I came across it x

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Posted 17 Jul 2015 at 10:43
Dear Indigo

I think we are all feeling for you at the moment, you are living through a time that we all dread.

My father in law was recently adamant that he wanted to come home to die, not from PCa, so we got him home with full time carers. It was extremely difficult as we could not get the drugs he needed for pain relief to him quickly enough, the system just could not do it. The GP visited but she was not a specialist, we had special bed, hoist, nurses. it cost us 3,000 per week for private carers, this is not important but I wanted to point this out as the NHS could not provide what we needed.

He wanted to come home so we arranged it.

My point is to you get as much help as is offered, find out how to get drugs quickly, it is horrendous seeing a loved one in pain and you cannot get the drugs. It will be extremely difficult for your Mum, she may need to be up day and night. What is her health like? is there any other support?

Please don't take this advice the wrong way, I am not trying to affect your difficult decision, just explain that in our experience the NHS could not provide the support at home that was needed and we were left to it to sort out, it was extremely difficult and we felt abandoned and helpless.

Bless you all xx

Alison

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Posted 17 Jul 2015 at 11:09

hi

just want to say am thinking of you

nidge

run long and prosper

'pooh how do you spell love'

'piglet you dont spell love -you just feel it'

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Posted 17 Jul 2015 at 22:34
I just wanted to let you all know the update on my dad. I think it is better news than we thought yesterday. Still not good but I don't think now we are going to loose him just yet.

The cancer has got a lot worse his prostate, pelvis and his bones but has not spread in to any organs. He went for a MRI scan today on his spine, This wasn't great news. The cancer of the prostate and pelvis is pressing in his spinal chord which is causing so much pain. This is actually quite serious as any wrong move could paralyse him. So with immediate effect he had to lie flat on his back and not move at all and on Monday he will start an intense course of radiotherapy on his spine to try and get the cancer away from his spine.

It really isn't good news for him but I don't think we are going to loose him in days which it felt like last night. If Mo could please give me her thoughts on this, it would be much appreciated as I felt relieved earlier but I'm still very scared and don't know what to think as like I said yesterday, I was told you can't die from prostate cancer it has to spread to organs first but I don't know what to think. The cancer is obviously very active at the moment as it has got worse even with all the treatment he has had x

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Posted 17 Jul 2015 at 22:35
I just wanted to let you all know the update on my dad. I think it is better news than we thought yesterday. Still not good but I don't think now we are going to loose him just yet.

The cancer has got a lot worse his prostate, pelvis and his bones but has not spread in to any organs. He went for a MRI scan today on his spine, This wasn't great news. The cancer of the prostate and pelvis is pressing in his spinal chord which is causing so much pain. This is actually quite serious as any wrong move could paralyse him. So with immediate effect he had to lie flat on his back and not move at all and on Monday he will start an intense course of radiotherapy on his spine to try and get the cancer away from his spine.

It really isn't good news for him but I don't think we are going to loose him in days which it felt like last night. If Mo could please give me her thoughts on this, it would be much appreciated as I felt relieved earlier but I'm still very scared and don't know what to think as like I said yesterday, I was told you can't die from prostate cancer it has to spread to organs first but I don't know what to think. The cancer is obviously very active at the moment as it has got worse even with all the treatment he has had x

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Posted 17 Jul 2015 at 22:37

Glad the news is relatively better than earlier Indigo.

I'm sure Mo will be along to help you. She knows a lot about it.

Try and get some rest. Your mum and dad need you.

Here's hoping the radiotherapy on Monday helps him. At least he is in the best place and they have acted promptly.

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Posted 18 Jul 2015 at 21:56
Indigo

hi, I wish you had private messaged me as I would have got an e amil to let me know you needed something, I have been away for 24 hours so I really am sorry I missed you last night.

Ok so you know I am quite forthright and would never intentionally mislead you so here is my take on what is happening with your Dad. I can try and put this into non medical jargon hoping it makes it easier for you to uderstand and relate to.

The first thing is that no spread to any vital organs is good, very good

the second thing is that the scans have shown that your Dad is probably having a spinal cord compression or SCC, I mentioned this condition to you on an earlier reply. This is quite common for men with prostate cancer where the cancer has spread into the spine. There are 3 main areas this can effect and each has different symptoms and outcomes. It sounds as though your Dad has his in the lower to mid lumbar region ie down low in his back. This would cause weak legs and difficulty walking, it is also incredibly painful as the tumour/s press against the nerves inside the spinal cord. The other two most likely areas for this are in the mid to upper back and the lower neck. It does not sound as though that is the case for your Dad so we can skip those for now. It is a very serious condition, indeed if left untreated in can cause paralysis and all that goes with that and in really severe cases even death.

Thankfully the hospital team must have partly guessed this and ordered all the tests to prove their thinking. That will be why they have stopped the enzalutamide for now as your Dad needs to undergo some fairy intensive treatment that is both physically and mentally taxing so he needs all his strength for that.

The normal course of action will be to immobilse your Dad as much as possible by telling him he has to stay flat on his back with no raising of the bed at all, this can be for 10 days or more and it is really hard for a patient. If you can imagine only being able to view the world from one aspect you get a bit of a fixation on any lights or marks on the ceiling. Also trying to eat or drink flat on your back is really hard, we have to be trained just how to feed a patient in that prone position. You and your Mum might like to get one of the nurses to show you how so that you can help at meal times. Also Dad will recognise your voices but will not be able to see your face so when you visit make sure you go close up and give him a kiss so he can look at you.

The next thing will be that he will have a lot of things done for him in terms of washing etc. he will be able and allowed to help with things like washing his face and hands, brushing his teeth etc. and maybe shaving, if he has been used to doing that all for himself and in his own bathroom then this change can be a bit frustrating.

Your Mum will be allowed to help if that is what she and your Dad want. Just to bear in mind this is a completely unnatural position to be in for so long, it is really hard so anything to relieve the boredom is good. Radio better than TV and having people around to stop him from trying to sit up a bit also helps. As treatment progresses he will slowly be allowed to sit up just a little tiny bit at a time though.

His treatment will start immediately with what is called an RT planning session the Radiology team will have your Dad slid onto the scanner bed so that they can pinpoint the exact areas that need treating, this is all done with very advanced computer imaging and the scans that were done earlier this week. They will mark up points on his body where the RT beams need to be focused these marks are called tatoos but they are really made with a special marker pen and dye unlike ink tatoos they do fade away with time. Indeed when washing or being washed the area of these marks will be avoided so as not to erase them at all. There may be 2 or more of these and they look a bit like a target cross.

Next stage is for probably 5 doses of Radiotherapy one done every day for 5 days.

This is a painless procedure albeit the movement and transfer will be very uncomfortable for your Dad so he may be given extra pain medication to achieve this.

He will also probably be fitted for a specialist back brace for after the RT, these look really uncomfortable but I am assured that they really feel great and are very supportive during recovery from this kind of problem. This will be worn whenever Dad is going to be moved until such time that the medical team are happy that he no longer needs it. This could be weeks it could be months and in some rare cases needed indefinitely.

Once again the good news is that it sounds as though your Dad had this picked up in good time so there may not have been any spinal compromise. If all the RT goes well and Dad responds positively to it then with lots of Physiotherapy and a great deal of patience he should be back on his feet again in a few weeks maybe even less.

Once you know how things are progressing I will be here to answer any questions you might have.

Dad may also have his medication changed a little with a new pain medication that specifically targets nerve pain being added maybe a drug called Lyrica.

He will be very tired, possibly a bit grumpy, possibly off his food (though you should encourage him to eat or use the high protein drinks the hospital will provide) so just be patient with him.

As for hospice, hospital or at home when the time comes, we can talk about that when and if it becomes necessary right now you focus on looking after your Mum who has bottled all this fear and anxiety up probably to help protect you, and of course your Dad.

You sound such a lovely lass so thankyou for caring so much to be posting here.

I hope this is not too much onformation for you all in one go

I will be thinking of you

best wishes

xx

Mo

Edited by member 18 Jul 2015 at 22:01  | Reason: Not specified

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Posted 18 Jul 2015 at 22:15
Hi Mo, thank you again for taking your time to come back to me. I'm not actually all that sure how this forum worlds so hopefully this will come straight to you.

Yes everything you have said is what the Drs have told us and he started his radiotherapy today. They said it is a very high dose so he will be extremely tired.

On Thursday night, I felt like I was going to loose my dad imminently buy now I don't think that is the case, however I do feel he is in a very bad way. His PSA level is 97 which is still going up even though he is having all the treatment. They said the cancer is very bad in his pelvis, prostate and his bones.

Mo please be honest with me and tell me your thoughts, do you think he is probably losing his fight?? My mum doesn't want to ask the Drs the question and I have to respect her wishes but I am different to my mum, I need to know things. I need to know what I am dealing with to be able to cope.

Mo I really do appreciate the info and your advice so much. It really has been a very difficult week xx

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Posted 19 Jul 2015 at 08:24

There you are Indigo I told you Mo would know. Why not message Mo directly so she can give you a personal answer.
Go to Mo's avatar picture, it will bring up her profile.
Within that profile is a "message " box which should go direct.

Good luck and best wishes.

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Posted 19 Jul 2015 at 10:40
Indigo

I have sent you a private message (PM) you should get a little box pop up when you log in that says you have a private message would you like to open it now yes or no. Also it will show in the menu as inbox (1) if you click on the tab it will take you to your message. If you have set up your e mail address it will also send you an e mail letting you know you have a new private message from Edamo.

If you do not get this let me know on here

xx

Mo

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Posted 20 Jul 2015 at 20:30
So on the emotional roller coaster with my dad. He's had a really good couple of days, had three lots of radiotherapy already to his spine but today he was very confused. He was shouting for my mum and trying to get out of bed saying he'd lost her and couldn't find her but she was sat next to him. He's been like that for over a week but is getting worse and today really bad. Does anyone know what could be causing this to happen?? Xx
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Posted 20 Jul 2015 at 21:43
Indigo

it is very likely that your Dad has been having some very strong but short duration pain medications to allow staff to move him from his bed to the special RT bed and back without actually causing any unnecessary distress. These can cause confusion and slightly irrational behaviour.

The RT is very intense and at quite a high dose but in itself unlikely to cause the confusion. However as I mentioned to you before being laid flat on your back unable to move or change your visual focus and perhaps in pain can be really hard to take mentally. In some extreme cases patients are actually sedated to help with this.

He may also have an infection, this is also very common in a lower lumbar SCC, usually a urinary infection but sometimes one in the bowel or gut. this is usually down to the nerves that are affected stopping the urges to urinate or defacate so things back up and infection can occur. You may find that Dad is being given meds to help him with normal bowel function, I am assuming he has a catheter to take care of urinary function?

All of these things are normally temporary and improve rapidly once the 5 doses of RT are finished if they succeed in shrinking the tumour/s that are causing the SCC.

I know it is hard but give this intensive treatment a chance to work before you get too distressed.

Thinking of you

xx

Mo

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Posted 21 Jul 2015 at 08:23

Excellent advice from Mo as usual.

Keep focussed on the benefits for now. Tell yourself this has to happen to your dad to make him feel better.

We can't control the winds - but we can adjust our sails
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Posted 21 Jul 2015 at 22:31
Thank you again Mo,

We have had another very difficult day with dad. He is extremely confused and hasn't really stopped talking all day but complete nonsense talk. He was talking with his eyes closed and was talking slurred. The Dr thought it would be best to do a scan on his brain so he went and had that done. Luckily the scan came back clear. I think the Drs are concerned what is causing the confusion. I have googled his symptoms and to me it sounds like he has Dilirium.

My poor dad seams to be not wanting to give up but all this is happening to him.

Why is life so cruel. I don't want to loose him but I hate seeing what the cancer is doing to him too. I just want my old amazing dad back xxx

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Posted 21 Jul 2015 at 23:38
Indigo

if the CAT scan came back clear that is good, I still think the confusion and delirium could be due to meds, infection or an abnormal reading on something like Haemaglobin,Potassium, Calcium or magnesium. Have they done blood tests for all his normal blood functionality. You could try asking them if he has a problem in his bloodwork.

I think tomorrow should be the last RT they may want to see how he settles down 24 hrs or so after that.

I think you deserve a better explanation on just what is causing this so keep asking.

It is really hard seeing your lovely Dad suffer like this and it does make you wish it was either all over or all sorted out but sadly it doesn't happen just like that. I know this is a tough ask but you need to just focus on being there for him and give this another few days to go one way or another.

I will be thinking of you and wishing you as much strength as possible

xx

Mo

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Posted 23 Jul 2015 at 17:38
Hi Mo,

I'm sorry I haven't replied back to you. It's been such a roller coaster.

My dads confusion has got s lot better, he's not completely back to normal but he seams a lot better in himself. He finished his radiotherapy yesterday and today the physio have got him up in chair eh in is much better for him.

But we were dealt with another blow today. Although on Tuesday we were told that dad's ct scan had come back clear, the full report has come back showing that yes the brain is cancer free but he has cancer in his skull. This has come as a big shock to us as we were told it had come back clear. The Dr is going to talk to us tomorrow as to what this means.

Not sure if this is something you have any knowledge on??

Feeling completely drained with all the ups and downs with all this xx

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Posted 23 Jul 2015 at 17:48

This is a horrible roller coaster ride isn't it Indigo.

I am so sorry that your dad has even more problems.

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow

Best Wishes

We can't control the winds - but we can adjust our sails
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Posted 23 Jul 2015 at 19:37
Hi Indigo firstly it is good that your Dad is getting less confused and that his RT is completed. It is even better news that the Physios are allowing him to be moved already. Usually after an SCC there is a period of complete immobility while things settle down so the medics must be confident that it is it safe to move him. That suggests that maybe the SCC was caught before it actually happened i.e it was nearly compressed but not quite. That is really positive news.

The scan your Dad had done will look at two areas, the brain itself and also the skull. Cancer in the brain as a secondary to PCa is what is called spread to soft tissue as you will know the brain itself is soft tissue and is one of our vital organs. Mets in the skull are the same as mets in the ribs or any other bones. It is quite common for them to appear in the skull at some stage. So try not to fret too much just yet. Listen to what the doctors tell you and then ask as many questions of them as you need to. Things like what problems those mets could cause like headaches What treatments are they going to consider next etc?.

It is a horrid roller coaster, we all tend to describe it in those exact words, so we do know just how hard it is for you and your Mum watching your Dad's health go up and down sometimes all in the same day.

Know that we are thinking of you

xx

Mo

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Posted 23 Jul 2015 at 20:37
Mo thank you so much again, you have no idea how much of a help you are to me right now. Everything we need to know or not sure about I only have to ask you and you have the answer.

I think I need to just focus on each day at a time for now xx

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Posted 23 Jul 2015 at 22:36

Hi Indigo.

I am so glad that Mo has come along and helped you , she is pretty FAB we call each other SS , Soul Sisters (sometimes we make such strong friends on here that go way beyond the call of duty).

I just wanted you to know that many people read posts but don't always reply , it is sometimes very difficult for those (not in the met camp) to reply and offer support so as a fellow met camp person . I understand what you are going through. Trevor has daughters and in the not too distant future we will be where you are know. Yes what a roller coaster but what a lovely daughter you are .  I am so glad that you found this site and I so hope that we can be a support when you need us.

BFN

Julie X

NEVER LAUGH AT A LIVE DRAGON
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Posted 23 Jul 2015 at 23:24
Aw Julie SS

I love you so much, we of course know just how painful this road is so any help or advice or just plain comfort, virtual hugs you name it we have got it.

Indigo I know you have already met my soul sister Julie , we are the best of friends all through this horrid disease and thank our lucky stars through this forum, which is kind of weird but just goes to show how much friendship, kindness and plain luviness brings us all together when we most need it.

we are here for you

xx

Mo

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Posted 24 Jul 2015 at 17:23

Originally Posted by: Online Community Member
I just wanted you to know that many people read posts but don't always reply

Indigo, I'm one of those. I've read all your posts but from my experiences of PCa to date there is nothing I can contribute to help you. However, even though I can't contribute doesn't mean I don't care. What I can do is tell you I care and hope you and your Mum and Dad find a path to see you through this horrible time.

ColU

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Posted 24 Jul 2015 at 21:04
Ahh thank you for taking your time to reply. It means an awful lot. Don't know how i would have coped these last 10 days without this site. I have the most amazing friends who have helped me a lot, picking my children up from school etc which I am very grateful but this site has kept me going through really difficult times. It has helped me understand things and allowed me to ask the questions that I was afraid to ask out loud.

I'm just sorry that a lot of replys I have had is through people's experience. It's a very cruel disease.

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Posted 30 Jul 2015 at 10:43
Hi All,

Thought i would come and say hello and let you know the latest on my dad.

He is still in hospital but still up and down. They don't seam to be able to get the right balance for his pain relief. He gets too confused and hallucinating on strong pain relief but isn't in pain but they have dropped the dose to stop the hallucinating and confusion but now he is in a lot of pain. Especially at night. Not sure which way I prefer to see him. Hate seeing him in pain. My mum is pushing for for him to come home which I'm not sure about. She was hoping for tomorrow but they said it definitely won't be tomorrow because they need to try and sort out his pain.

The Dr has said he is happy for him to continue on the enzalutanide to try and keep the cancer at bay. Although my mum is extremely happy about this, I feel sad about that too. All that will do is prolong the pain that my dad is in. As much as I hate to refer my amazing dad to a dog but if he was a dog we would be done for cruelty. Why does this have to be so painful and difficult??

Would be happy for anybody's thoughts on this. I just feel so desperately sad and alone at the monent. I'm not alone, I have a husband 3 children, my mum and amazing friends, aunts uncles, cousins. So I am far from it but I feel alone x

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Posted 30 Jul 2015 at 16:50

You feel alone because the sorrow is YOUR sorrow and nobody else can exactly understand that. Even your mum's pain and sadness is different to yours. The bond is different.

You love your dad to bits and hate to see him like he is, but for your mum he is the extension to herself and she is probably hoping that the Enzalutamide will extend his life so he can stay with her a bit longer.

This is no hard and fast answer to this kind of pain. I said many times when my mum was dying with cancer that you wouldn't treat a dog in the same way because you would be advised to do the kindest thing.
But as humans we cannot get past that "while there's life there's hope" aspect.

Try not to feel sad that your mum wants the Enzalutamide to continue, she is frightened of the future without him.

As for feeling alone, well, you aren't entirely are you because you have us. We may only be a virtual "family" but you know we're here if you need us. xx

We can't control the winds - but we can adjust our sails
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Posted 30 Jul 2015 at 17:59
Indigo

I echo Sandra's words and will add a few of my own.

Right now you will be going through so many emotions that they all start to run into each other. Feeling that you are alone even when you are surrounded by people is something I still get. No matter how hard I try I just think nobody "gets" me in that particular moment. It does pass and I know many other people who also feel this way so it is a common thing.

You are almost certainly beginning to grieve for your Dad, this is because you have accepted the inevitable so it is also absolutely normal, you really do not want to see your lovely Dad in pain or suffering and are worried that continuing the Enzalutamide will just prolong his suffering.

You sound as though you wish he could just slip away peacefully, but then you might also struggle for feling that way . Please do not be afriad of these feelings it is because you love him deeply that you simply cannot rationlaise or deal with this huge conflict of emotions.

You are also right, that old saying about shooting horses does make us think that we are so cruel to allow our own loved ones to suffer so much.

Your Mum will be going through her own and likely different emotions so you will both need to just bear with each other as best as you can to provide as much support as ever for your Dad. In time those emotions will become the same for you both and it will be easier for you to then support each other.

We are all here for you if you need to share your own personal pain and anguish.

Thinking of you

xx

Mo

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Posted 30 Jul 2015 at 18:05

Elaine and I are / have been thinking of you all Indigo . I cant really add anything to what the others have said , and am lost for words . Wishing for you

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Posted 30 Jul 2015 at 18:13
Thank you , as always you make so much sense and you do get it which is a massive help.

I think the but I am really struggling with is nobody has actually told us what is happening. We know the cancer is getting worse and has got bad in his prostate his pelvis and is pressing on his spinal cord. We also know that it has spread to his skull.

My mum has it in her bras that my dad could still be around in another couple of years. Nobody has actually told us otherwise so I don't blame her for being optimistic. I think realistically we both know that isn't going to be the case but how long liky has he got?? Surely people know roughly what time of life expectancy he has once the cancer gets to these places. I know not everyone likes to know, my mum especially but I do need to know so I can kind of get it right in my own head and try and come up with a way of dealing with it. If that's at all possible xx

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Posted 30 Jul 2015 at 19:16

Indigo,

Having watched my father suffer with advanced  PCa for many months 30 years ago I do have empathy with your situation..

You are in my thoughts

Luther

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Posted 31 Jul 2015 at 08:35
Hi Indigo

have the hospital got a Macmillan nurse that you can talk to, your Dad or your Mum may have to let them know it is OK to talk with you as there is only so much they can share without that consent. The nurse will have a good idea of how your Dad's future lies but bear two things in mind, firstly, it is impossible for anyone to give you an accurate prognosis as this disease works behind its own doors, ones that you cannot see past so if they give you a time frame it will be non specific. Secondly once you know you will have to keep that information to yourself as it would be wrong to let it slip to your Mum or worse still to your Dad if they really do not want to know.

If you cannot get to speak to a Macmillan or Marie Curie nurse or similar you could try to have a private word with the Hospital consultant and ask him for some answers to your questions. All of the above would still apply.

One thing I find a tiny bit hard to understand is that the Consultant is going to continue with Enzalutamide, that would suggest to me that he believes your Dad is still in Palliative care rather than end of life care. These drugs are really expensive and hard to get so would not be given if there was no purpose.

I do sympathise and totally agree that you need some answers to your questions so that you can manage your own emotions and find your own way of dealing with what is to come. Right now you are in limbo and dealing with that is so hard.

thinking of you

xx

Mo

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Posted 31 Jul 2015 at 16:45

Hi Indigo,

I can totally sympathise with you some people need to know when the worst may happen so that they can mentally prepare for it (I am the same) you are in such a nightmare place at the moment willing the worst to happen so your Dad does not suffer . I do agree with Mandy that if the Drs thought it wasn't worth giving your Dad Enza then they wouldn't do it. I suppose in reality know one can say exactly how long your Dad has left.

I remember vividly when my Mum died, she had cancer and then had a stroke at the time the Drs predicted 24/48 hrs as it turned out she survived another 10 days and yes the same as you I asked if they could give her something to hasten her death (it turns out that it is illegal in this country) http://community.prostatecanceruk.org/editors/tiny_mce/plugins/emoticons/img/smiley-sealed.gif. The overwhelming feeling that I had immediately after her death was relief. 

None of us can walk your shoes but what we can do is support you through this awful time through our virtual community. Just call out and we will hear you.

BFN

Julie X 

NEVER LAUGH AT A LIVE DRAGON
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Posted 06 Aug 2015 at 11:08
Hi all,

Thought I would update you on my dad.

my dad is still in hospital. They just can't get on top of his pain relief. During the night he in a lot of pain but they they can't give him too much as it makes him confused and delirious. I think they have come to the decision now that there isn't much more they can do pain relief wise. So may send him home. He is still taking the enzalutamide Which I don't know yet what that doing. It's been a very hard few weeks and still not got much further on with things.

They have also suggested he has a Stint in the Macmillan unit but he really doesn't want to. I honestly think that would probably finish him off. I do worry that it is going to be very hard for my mum having dad at home but it is there wishes and I will respect what they want xx

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Posted 06 Aug 2015 at 12:59
Indigo

Have you managed to get any counsel from any of the medical team yourself yet?

Your Dad may manage better at home in his own surroundings, if the pain is too much he or your Mum will act I am sure. Is he mobile enough to be safe at home without special facilities or assistance?

Try to get the contact information for the Macmillan unit and if necessary his GP may be able to get him referred there in the future.

If he is still being prescribed Enzalutamide then this may also aid an improvement. The Consultant would not keep prescribing it if he felt it was pointless.

Just give your Mum and Dad as much support as you can whilst respecting their decision.

You are a caring, loving daughter but there is only so much you can do.

All the best wishes

Xx

Mo

 
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