I have started and deleted this post several times, too waffly, too detailed, too confused. So here are the bones of it.
Diagnosed with bowel cancer Oct 2017, for the 2nd time (first in 2002), tumour removed with a substantial part of the small bowel.Had chemo but during last three sessions CEA started to climb. Jun 2018 PET scan showed four areas of concern in the pelvic area including the prostate. Prostate biopsy revealed 20% acinar adinocarcinoma and 80% small cell cancer. Carboplatin +etoposide plus hormone therapy started. CEA was reducing at each blood test. After cycle 5 CEA jumped back to original high levels.
Had my last, of 6, chemo two weeks ago and just waiting for a PET scan next week.
Having read all I could find on survival stats, which was not a great deal, it would appear chemo does little to slow the small monster down.
Although I have no fear of dying,my wife died five years ago and I have no family, I cannot get out of my head the thought that I could have had 5 good months of life if I had not bothered with some serious side effected chemo.
Was about to delete this again because i don't know really what I am asking or why i am posting, so here goes