We went to get bloods done today, ready for Monday, it was so difficult as John seems really poorly and is suffering from sickness and can’t eat much. I called my lovely hospice nurse and she said that this could be down to too much calcium in the blood and recommended he take some of the anti sickness drug we had left from chemo (which has helped a bit). I am quite fearful at the moment, looking at his colour and general health. I’m off to Bradford again on Monday right after the oncologist visit (why have I done that to myself?), unless things are really bad, in which case I won’t go. I’m hoping for a plan but am very down hearted today, as are our daughters. In fact, all of us including John, have had tears today. It’s very hard watching someone you love suffer and be unable to do much about it.
not one of my best days, just letting off a bit of steam here as I do need to man up and carry on somehow, please bear with me.
love Devonmaid xxx