Today is the First Day of the Rest of my Life

Well, at least you have answers now and can relax a bit.
Very pleased for you.
My other half has a small problem in the same area caused by the radiation from Brachy and has some discomfort, so I can appreciate how you feel.

Get on with that writing and/or blogging now - you have run out of excuses!!!!!

Another bit of understanding and progress in where you are at the moment. Hopefully you can now relax for a while.

Paul

Steve, research says zoladex causes breathlessness for 5% of men but this rises to 20% at 6-12 months after they started taking it. From 12 months on, it seems to resolve itself. Stay strong x

Everyone reacts differently to HT but fatique is definitely a potential side effect. I wonder though whether you are trying to rush your body back to full health. You have taken such a knocking lately you are bound to feel out of kilter whatever the precise cause. You have to give yourself time. I have learnt after three years on HT that if I am to continue work, which I love, I have to manage periods when I feel fatigued, sometimes out of the blue! I am having a holiday this week and doing some writing and you would think that I would be able to control how I feel. For two days worked really well, then had two days when I could do nothing. I just had to rest. Today I feel great again. I think I am understanding my body better as I go along but it takes time.

Give yourself a break, Steve, we want to see you at Newark and beyond!

Hi,

I started my cardiac rehab course last Thursday morning.  It began with a blood pressure and heart rate check.  My cardiac rehab nurse was immediately concerned as my heart rate only registered in the thirties instead of the normal 60 to 70 bpm.  She gave me an ECG to check what my heart was doing but decided that I was OK to continue with the morning's fitness course.

It began with warm up exercises followed by circuit training (if anyone's done that you know what I went through) which was not too bad for a first session.  It will get harder throughout the course.  Anyway, I enjoyed the idea that I was doing something to try and regain my fitness.

I had the second session this morning (Tuesday) and took the opportunity to mention to my rehab nurse that my heart rate was only 39 bpm on Monday evening and has been around that figure several times over the last few weeks.  She asked me how I was checking these figures and I told her that it was with my small blood pressure monitor.  She said that these machines were not very accurate when it comes to measuring heart rates and not to worry.  When she did her own test my blood pressure and heart rate were in normal range.

The session went ok apart from a couple of periods of dizziness when doing certain exercises and ended with the nurses teaching us relaxation technics.  Five minutes after the exercise session finished and before the relaxation talk began we all had our heart rate checked to see how we'd recovered from the activities.  When it came to having mine checked, it read as 40 bpm.  It was double checked and was still the same. 

After the session, I was kept behind and my nurse said she thought I should have more investigations into why this was happening.  She's going to discuss the situation with my consultant to see if I should be fitted with a portable heart monitor for 24 hours to try and see what's happening with my heart.  I do have a problem that I suffer dizziness and breathlessness (still) quite often.  I'm hoping that if this monitoring happens, it will provide a few answers as to why things are happening.  I just want to get back to being normal.

I slept for three hours this afternoon when I got home, I'm just so tired all the time.  I'm sure my Zoladex treatment must add to the effects of my poor heart performance.

I thought my heart problem would disappear after my second op, I have to admit to being a little fed up now.

Steve  

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You can feel both emotions Steve, it is allowed.  Hang on, "Positively sad"?  NO, that is not what I meant.  I doubt that anyone looking back to their "D" date, their diagnosis date, looks back with any degree of fondness or joy?  Maybe some, at the time misplaced, relief if they were told "Ah your lucky, it is only prostate cancer, that's a good one to get"?  How many time have I heard that said, and even said it myself when telling people about my condition?  The fact is that for all of use love changed, life expectancies changed, hopes and dreams were replaced by fears and anxieties that we never even knew existed. 

But, we do have a choice in what emotion takes precedence in our lives and thoughts, although that choice may take longer to be made depending on what stage you are at in your "journey" or nightmare?

Having posed for you, and having been rearranged by you, you are a quite bossy reggub when you heft that Nikon body up you know, I feel free to advise, feel sad but feel glad that you are still here, and although you have had a plethora of issues recently you are still being given treatments to deal with them.  

Things could be worse?  I know that is little comfort, but no matter how much tihs has hit your fan recently there could be more, so hang on in there and keep believing, keep fighting and keep snapping.

atb

dave

shall I pout a bit, or look like this, lick my lips or stick my butt out?

Good evening Steve

We all feel like this on some days. My OH is quite 'down' at the moment too and it does affect the whole family as he has no patience with the children and does not want to do anything except sit down/snooze all day which is frustrating for me as I have so much to do.... (although I do not mean to feel this way).

I end up trying to focus on being thankful that we were diagnosed - afterall we could have carried on in blissful ignorance of this disease which eventually would catch up with us and possibly present with a far worse diagnosis.

From what I recall you are still in the 'cure' camp, keep reminding yourself of this, as it is something to be really thankful for and gives you hope.

Best of luck sorting out the heart problems too - not easy but you will get through it as you are getting one to one treatment.

We have had lots of other medical problems too like pain in shoulder, swollen ankles, tinnitus, hearing loss etc which have meant loads of additional tests and worry that it is somehow connected. It seems like we can (sort of) cope with fighting one problem/illness but when other issues are brought in to the mix too, it becomes really difficult to cope as we don't know what to worry about next. It seems like this is how you are feeling too at the moment and hopefully once this heart problem is sorted you can get back to the job in hand of fighting this damn PCa.

Stay strong...

Alison x

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Hello Steve life is certainly often full of uncertainty . This is the hardest thing to cope with I think with health issues. I am just starting to realise that our lives will never be the same since my OH was diagnosed with Pca. I think what makes it harder is his naivety . He will just take the word of the doctor and do everything he is told and disregards my research . I hope things soon pick up for you. Getting back to work may be good for your morale as long as it is not too exhausting for you.. I can tell you are worried about this. If you don't mind me saying I think you sound depressed and some of your fatigue may be attributed to this. Hope your wife is ok.. Georgina

Dear Steve

I am sorry to hear of the latest problems, not least your wife having the cancer tests.

(I had a breast lump last year, removed the day of the consultant finding it - and an agonising week wait for the pathology) so I really do understand how you feel and that you cant possibly take any more worry. I was certain it was cancer. Mercifully it was not. I hope the same goes for your wife.

There is no easy way through this difficult time waiting, you just have to stick it out.

I hope the heart issues are solved soon.

You have friends here who are thinking of you.

Alison x