I hope all goes well for you too..
It's hard to stay positive when things aren't going as hoped but
A year ago my oh suffered spinal cord compression whilst we were in lanzarote he lost nearly
All the use of his legs and how we got home God knows!
As soon as we arrived home he spent the next three weeks in hospital the first week in bed .prior to this he was working full time so it was a huge blow in our cancer journey,they said he may get the use of his legs again he may not!
Over the coming months we excercised he made use of out treadmill and began to regain strength..all this and having chemo ,he had to learn to balance again stand on his own and eventually walk .
Three weeks ago we was back in Cyprus he was walking round the buffet which is a huge achievement for him now we are back to face our next round of chemo .
So I think remaining positive is crucial if you can .
Take care.